Wednesday 29th July

Had my first 7.30 start and got to work really early. Not too bad as it is quiet in the mornings and it went quick but find it weird that lunch break is so late. Had a range of calls and learnt something new as made a fair few errors. Had someone who died on the aircraft and someone with a collapsed lung. Had one ass who was drinking gin and tonic. Glad he had gone by the time i had come back from duty as he was demanding to speak to a supervisor. Started to make a tally of my calls; only answered 24 calls, which is not good as i am no where near meeting my targets. Its a shame that our outbound calls are taken into account and i think i probably would meet my targets that way. Got a Facebook request from my boss at centro. I do miss the people there and its a shame that where i work now you don't have that close vibe as there are so many and you work at different times and constantly sitting somewhere different.

Tuesday 28th July

On Saturday my mum came to visit, only brief but she took me to lunch at the spoons. In the evening i last minute decided to join Amelia in visiting Gareth. Got far too drunk for what I intended and woke up far to late for my liking. Only just made it to work on time. Overall it wasn't too bad being in on a Sunday.

On monday i had to join the rest in shift seating. I was sat back near where i originally sat in creche. Alright but just felt crowded. Today i was sat in a different place. Way down the other side by the window. Alright down there, though it was quite far to walk to duty and i ended up going to duty quite a lot today. Finally got to take my toil which is always nice; getting to leave work early, though i do always feel a bit guilty, which i know is stupid. I'm starting to worry that something may be wrong with car in regards to the steering, as it seems to keep going to one side; although that might just be because the roads are very wet.

Friday 24th June

Lots of twat drivers on the road on my way to work. At least work went ok and made it the whole day without getting any white slips from fares. Chris was back in today. So far I seem to be doing ok without floorwalkers, though i did go up to them for some quick questions. I did like today as i like sitting next to kirsty as she always makes me laugh.

Thursday 23rd July

Had Kirsty to keep me company on the late shift, felt like i was struggling as i was very tired even on my way there. Got stuck for 23 minutes but at least they were nice and very grateful for my help. Did have to call through to fares in India which as annoying, the woman was so slow. Had a different shift today, which i actually quite liked. The day did go quite quickly. Was meant to have a one to one with Chris but it got cancelled as he was ill. Had to cancel my plans again with gareth because i have come on, which is annoying and i miss him and i won't be able to see him till next thursday as friday is my next day off after saturday.

Tuesday 21st July

Yesday i started shifts and i was on the late one. Felt weird but also kinda liked that i was sat all on my own. A bit scary not having the floorwalkers. Had my first budget, which is annoying as i was only following the advice i was given from floorwalkers. Ended up getting stuck on a call as i had a very annoying woman who wanted to speak to a supervisor, there literally wasn't any supervisors. I don't think I'm going to get the time back as i went to the dose who wrote it down, but i don't think anything will get done about it, and i didn't get his name.

Today i had off and it all for myself. A bit boring really, felt kinda weird. Was going to go see Gareth but cba and well i dunno i have a rule no booty calls on a work night. Feeling kinda gross anyway. Should be seeing him on friday but i might have to cancel that as i might be on. I can tell that what i feel for him is genuine as he is now starting to make me sad, but that is more to do with my own thinking, but i do really really like him. Amelia made me laugh, as she came home drunk, and she is adorable.

Sunday 19th Jul

Thursday i had a really rude american woman on the phone who kept going on about being deaf. Amelia's mum came to stay over and had some wine. Friday I had a one to one with Wendy, still not doing great with my calls. Had to listen to one of my calls, and i absolutely hate the sound of my own voice. Very cringy and they can still see what you don on screen even when the call has finished. After work went to meet g for dinner. He took me to lust, luck, liquor and burn. A very nice mexican place, had some drinks there whilst we waited for a table. Had a very nice burrito and shared some fries. Would definetly go there again. Also realised earlier today that James used to work there and was wondering if he had gone back to work there after he left ba. Went to spoons for a drink. We also went to the spar to get a bottle and they were playing nightswish; sahara. Went back to mine.

Saturday got up late felt a bit awkward the way i always do the next morning and was glad when he left. Didn't really do much for the rest of the day and went round to his in the evening and it was a very good evening. Came back this morning, at least i managed to get away. Though i do feel like I'm starting to miss him. Scared as i can feel myself falling for him and i don't feel he is as into me as i am him, or that he doesn't really want much else other than sex, which i am ok with, just scared of getting hurt. Starting to get annoyed that ewan is around all the time.

Wednesday 15th July

Had to move desks at work as we are now doing shift seating. Annoying as it means i have to keep moving all my stuff around. It would be better if i had draws, which we still don't, yet the group who started after us got draws today. Really takes the piss. Had a really rude woman, normally people are rude but she was being directly rude to me, going on about me not talking proper english, and her an american, seriously? Been thinking a lot about G and I'm not sure how i feel about him. On the one had in do really like him, i really like spending time with him and he makes me happy, but i doubt if i do really like or if its a case of i just want to like him. Or maybe is it my subconcious telling me not to, as i don't want to fall for him i like i did with someone else. I keep asking myself what if he just stopped talking to me and i never saw him again. I tell myself that my ego would be hurt but other than that i wouldn't be bothered. I genuinely don't know, as how can i know until it happens.

Tuesday 14th July

Work wasn't as bad as i thought. After work I went to G's and saw his new house, his house mate came and interrupted though. He made me chilli for dinner which was nice. The house is alright but parking is quite tight but i will be ok. Shame that his room is so small. Really enjoyed spending time with him.

Managed to get an hour off the phones today as i had to go to a meeting for quality. Had an email for a one to one with Wendy. She makes me really nervous and am scared to meet her as she listens to my calls. Chris also came and sat next to me and listened to one of my calls. The call didn't go very well, was really nervous though, also doesn't help that i fancy him.

Sunday 12th July

Took the banana bread into work and the people who tried it seemed to like it. When i got home G was already there. It s nice that he wanted to come over, didn't do my best effort with dinner. Had some good sex and really liked that he stayed the night, particularly as in the morning i got birthday sex.

On thursday i went to birmingham. My mum met me at new street. Went to the usual spoons for curry night, which i really enjoyed. On the friday i went up town with my mum and had lunch at bella italia, and had shared a bottle of processeco. Went for a nap but fell asleep, so only made it to bowling just in time. Lost at bowling as usual. Went back to mine and had a fun night with friends, luckily luke bough his cards against humanity as i forgot mine, and i won. I noticed that benji is looking quite skin, which is properly all the drugs he does. On saturday I went up town and went to the brook and then hung out with the guild, which was boring to be honest, also i was disappointed that corey wasn't there. Came back to manchester today and not really done much.

Tuesday 7th July

Ended up being on a call for 98 minutes but at least I didn't have to get a tl. Was embarrassing when my tl came over to tell me I had been on wrap too long and to take my break, but I was busy sorting some bookings out. Made some banana bread tonight which looks and smells lush.

Monday 6th July

Saw the roster at work for my first week on shifts, not too bad, got mixed feelings about doing shift, but it will be nice to have flexibility. Work wasn't too bad, some stupid caller who had booked an infant but the infant was yet to be born. Got annoyed in asda as they shut the tills and I hate self service. G has left his bus pass here and I feel guilty about not trying to get it back to him.

Sunday 5th July

My car passed its mot and it only cost £21. Went round to Ewan's flat. Quite a nice flat and able to climb onto the roof. Enjoyed making out with g. Mel was passed out by midnight and everyone went out except me and g who stayed in the flat for a bit before going back to mine. We tried to have sex but he couldn't get it up. Was going to try the next morning but Amelia interrupted and stayed with us for a bit. Tried again and had some trouble but got there in the end. Whilst I did enjoy and glad to finally have sex again, his penis was a bit on the small side, but I'm not sure it was fully erect. One  of  Ewan's friends fixed out blinds, which I'm very happy about. They all left to get a burrito whilst me and g ordered pizza and then made out for the rest of the dayin my bed. Was glad when he finally left as I just wanted some me time. He left the rest of the pizza here so lots of food for me to enjoy.

Friday 3rd July

A new group came on the phones so we lost a load of our floor walkers. Had a team meeting which was outside. I was glad of this as it was such a nice day, but I did get sun burn, never expected to get sunburn at work. Mainly I just liked getting an hour with hy and an hour off the phones. It was also nice to meet the rest of my team. Though it does look like the fam trip is cancelled.

Thursday 2nd July

Found a quicker way to get to work and easier. Fred is starting to be really annoying, acting like a child. Starting to feel a bit more relaxed at work, I guess I will know at the end of crèche. After work I went straight home and then went to meet g. Just hung out in the park which felt really nice, even if Mel does keep embarrassing me. I guess I do actually really like. I think about him a lot of the time and can really feel something for him, but there is still something a bit off, but I am looking forward to seeing him again, though I am scared he is going off me. Felt proud of myself for driving to his and back without getting lost. Got back just in time as there was a thunder storm. Did get interrogated by Mel.

Work is really starting to drag these days. Was happy that I got to dress own today due to the hot weather, though today was not as bad.

Tuesday 30th June

work was a bit better today but Fred was really annoying. Won't have to put up with him for much longer as he handed in his notice. Hy made me jump, glad he was in but he doesn't normally talk to me but he came over to help me and the whole thing was just really cringy. Mel didn't go to work today as her skin is really bad p. Her mum has come up and is staying the night. The weather has been really hot and such a shame I have to spend it in doors.

Monday 29th June

Felt really tired today. Hy wasn't in today, and didn't feel as sad about it as I thought I would, properly as my thoughts are occupied by someone else. Fred was back and I don't think he liked that he had been moved, though I don't get why he had to sit where Martin normally sits as there were spare desks and now Martin will have to move. Fred was also coughing really badly and it was really annoying, no need for it. I got to leave work half an hourly early. Still need to book my train ticket for home, might just do that now as I don't care what Lucy said about leave, just a few stupid people taking the piss. My leave as a,ready been approved. Plus I have already made plans now

Sunday 28th June

Most if yesterday was horrible as I was feeling crap about being on and decided not to go out, but when Mel came home she talked me into going out. I was glad that I fid go out as I had such a good night, even if we didn't have sex. It just felt nice to cuddle and make out. His bed was really comfy, shame he is moving. Overall it was a nice house. Tried mdma for the first time. at the time I felt alright but today I was really suffering. Found out some interesting things last night, fir example about his marriage. Also apparently he has been talking about me at work, don't really understand why though. I guess I do like him and today I have been missing him. Really hate Mother Nature at times. At least I'm getting them.

Friday 26th June

made a big screw up at work, possible might get a budget. Was sad that hy was not in. Came on today which has messed up my plans for tomorrow, even though I'm not sure if I do want to have sex with him, as all the drugs he takes kinda puts me off, but I do want to have sex, maybe just not with him.

Thursday 25th June

Work was stressful as usual. Forgot to bring in my cup of soup but quite enjoyed my cottage cheese salad with lots of humous. Went to the chip shop but got a chicken wrap which was quite nice and the staff there were really friendly. Also had some wine.

Had a costa on the way to work, not as good as Starbucks. Had 2 angry callers in a row who were pissed about a cancelled Bermuda flight. The second guy was the worse. Absolutely horrible and arrogant twat. A new group came up today and my god it got noisy when they came up. Always had a bad vibe from that group.

Tuesday 23rd June

Had a weird dream last night. I nearly go shot outside sainsburys in ag. He also threatened Lilly, he said he would shoot her unless Liam hit her. In the sidelines was hy (which is the code for a certain person). I hope this doesn't foreshadow anything. Felt a bit sad at work this morning as hy wasn't in. At lunch I found out the james has left and Fred is planning to leave. It's a shame as we had all made it so far before anyone leaving. I have also noticed that there seems to be quite fewer people left from the group that was before us. Felt a bit better when I got back from lunch as hy was in, so I was a happy that I got to see him today. Went to a meeting for something called our voice. Hy was there, and the meeting was also fairly interesting. Getting annoyed as I have to park in another car park for the gym and I keep getting stuck in there. I think it is down to there shitty machines as I had trouble even getting today.

Monday 22nd June

So work wasn't so bad, felt a bit lonely as Issi wasn't in an umi left as she wasn't feeling well. In my morning break I phoned Jordan's but didn't really get anywhere, plu I felt kinda embarrassed as a certain person was in the canteen where I was trying to make the call. Later in the afternoon I i felt a bit giddy as he walked past me and smiled and I was just feeling silly about it. His smile was so cute and also a bit goofy. Basically I need to get over it. Had to stop myself laughing during one call, as his name was Mr Grey and his middle name was Chris. Found it hard to say Mr grey with a straight face, but at least I didn't have to deal with him as he was ggl.

Sunday 21st June

my parents came to visit yesterday which was nice. They brought my lamp which is handy now. Drove to fallow fields for a wetherspoons but my mum and me stayed in the car which we had parked in a McDonald's car park. Then drove to chorlton and the spoons there was quite nice. Shared a bottle of wine with my mum, so got a bit tipsy. Then went to asda so my dad could fill my car with petrol and wash my car for me and mum mum bought me some more wine. Back at the flat I gave my parents the rest of mels wine from aldi to have on the train. My dad later sent a pic of the wine mixed with sparkling water. Mel also had her parents visit. Went round to Ewan's where we later joined by his friends. Then onto satans hollow. Had a good night and made out with one of Ewan's friends. Was going to sleep with him but didn't as I lost the moment. The whole time I was thinking about somebody else. We all went back to our flat and played cards against humanity which I won.

Got up really late as I thought Ewan's friends were still sleeping on the couch, but found out later that they didn't actually stay. Feel bad about last night but we have been talking and Mel is trying to set us up.

Friday 19th June

Parking was a nightmare this morning, seems to be getting that way often. As Amy was not in today I thought I would get her usual space, but no luck. It seemed really quiet at work, but there were quite a few people off. Finally got to meet my bm. He seems really nice and friendly. Reminded me a bit of dad as he is a plane geek. The meet lasted an hour and a half, so that was less time on the phones. Straight after I was able to have my break. Starting to get my head around things at work

Thursday 18th June

Well my ankle seems to be getting better, unlike my crush on tl. Today I had the afternoon off the phones as we had a workshop, going over any questions and how to recognise bookings. So it was an afternoon spent with our two team leaders, which of course made me happy. Going to the gym has been annoying recently as parking is limited, so I have to go to the car park across the road, but at least I still get it free. My hayfever as been horrible in the evenings recently. In regards to other matters, at least I have found a different guy to fixate on, just a shame he is with someone else.

Tuesday 16th June

so found out Mel had gone to Nottingham for the weekend. Ordered Chinese from a place called Buddha express. Very nice. Watched games of throne finale. Can't believe how much I cried and can't believe Jon snow is dead.

Got the tram to work as wanted a Starbucks. I keep messing up at work. Starting to get worried about my ankle as it has been hurting for two weeks now. Saw a cyclist get briefly hit my a taxi. He was alright as he got straight back up, but he wasn't wearing a helmet, which really pisses me off as I kinda think people like that deserve to get hit.

Saturday 13th June

so I got my wing mirror fixed but I got ridiculously lost trying to find the place even though it is just down the road. But stupid one way roads and not being able to turn onto roads from certain directions. Of all the times I've gotten lost now I think I must have seen all of Manchester. Also picked up my new bed sheets. Kinda depressing that I have now spent to Saturday nights in a row in by myself, but at least I am saving money. I have tried to find places to do yoga but they are either too expensive, too far or on at an inconvenient time.

Friday 12th June

work was quite stressful, just hope that I start to get better. Managed to make it to asda but it was really annoying that they didn't have any proper check outs open.

Thursday 11th June

traffic was alright this morning, think I was behind Tee at the turning onto wilmslow road. Managed to go a whole hour without asking for help. Had a fe sad calls and some more vile people. Kinda annoyed as I'm developing a crush on my team leader. Also found out that Christopher Lee has died.  Mel was back today and she bought the brownies that she made, they were fairly nice but a bit dry and could be a little sweeter.

Wednesday 10th June

Yesterday at work we had a little graduation. It was nice to see Sam again. Got a certificate and had some nice cake and a glass of Buck's Fizz. I booked my flights to America, now just need to sort out the rest of the trip and hope I get leave. Didn't go with ba as its so expensive but I did go with Virgin, plus it's a direct flight from Manchester.

Had some really vile people at work. Really wanted a Starbucks but had to settle for Costa. At least the traffic wasn't so bad today and I got to finish work on time, plus I did my first email.

Monday 8th June

Have now got the flat to myself for a bit longer as whilst Mel came home late last night with Ewan, when she left this morning she said that she was going home for a couple of days. It was tense at work today, but I did find out that I had passed tele val weeke, only just though. Hoping my first call this morning was listened to as I royally fucked up. Had a call from Mr Clutch  and it will cost around £70 to get my car fixed which is cheaper than what I thought but still, I should be having to pay this. Game of thrones tonight was very distressing, well they did warn me before the last half. Stanis, the bastard and felt really bad for danyeris, but it was awe inspiring when she went off on her dragon at the end.

Sunday 7th June

it has been nice this weekend, having the flat to myself as Mel has gone to Derby, though it has been a bit lonely. Had a dream about work last night. Feeling very nervous about going in tomorrow. Terrified it will be the last time I do. Haven't really done much. I ignored a FaceTime from m y dad, I do that a lot but it annoys me that I have to let it ring out as there is no reject option. Glad I ignored it as he is calling from Devon now as he starts his new job there and I can't really be bothered to talk to anyone, especially as I had just sat down with a cuppa to watch Nashville.

Saturday 6th June

Still not feeling that I'm doing well at work plus I still haven't had any feedback yet. A bit harsh to make me wait all weekend for them to get rid of me on Monday. I was sad to hear that Fred got bad feedback. On my way home on Friday the back of my wing mirror flew off. If I wasn't so mad about how it happened I would have found it comical the way it went flying. Had some really bad calls on Friday from the get go. Had a nice evening drinking wine.

This morning the first thing I did was ring Mr Clutch to see if they can fix my wing mirror. Had to take it in but looks like I will have to wait till next Saturday for it to be fixed as they need to get it from Ford. At least the guy was friendly and seemed genuinely helpful. Went to get a nice free large Starbucks and had the Java chip, but Piccadilly was manic with people going to park life festival. Crazy the outfits some people were wearing, saw one girl with short pulled right up I could see her ass cheeks. Surely that should be indecent exposure.

Thursday 2nd June

Tuesday was a disaster! Ended up in tears, Wednesday and today not much better. Really worried that I won't pass validation week. One of the floor walkers tee was really nice but I feel that she is giving me false hope. This morning was horrible as some wanker was cutting me up and knocked my wing mirror off. Really can't afford to get it fix, plus my car is due it's mot soon. I can still just about drive it up it makes me so mad. Basically it was a hit and run

Monday 1st June

Wore my sunglasses to work this morning which is a complete contrast to the weather now. For once I was able to watch Jurassic park without dreams of dinosaurs but I did dream about getting sunburn. Didn't have a good nights sleep as I had a headache. Last morning of training and then on the phones. Mixed feelings about it. Glad to be finally doing the job but messed up a bit and feel like I need to know the procedures more as I don't know the number for toil and I got stuck on a call so didn't finish till 18.11. Watched a very intense episode of game of thrones. Now I know why people were saying it could possibly be the best episode yet.

Sunday 31st May

Lots of treats at work for what seemed more like obese Friday rather than fat Friday. My cake went down well, Martin said that I would make someone a good wife. Doubt that will ever happen, I'm probably going to spend he rest of my life single. Had a nice meal at the Didsbury; Asian style rare beef salad. Booked a train ticket to brum as benji invited me to hang out round Graham's. 

Had to sit in cattle class and it was a traumatic experience. Miss first class. Didn't spend long at home as went round to Graham's. Played that game I really like plus some others which I didn't really follow. Had pizza which was as good as normal, but they did give us dips and a slice of cake. Glad I didn't watch the football as it couldn't have been much worse, but at least they got to the final.

My dad gave me a lift to the station and I was able to get a priv ticket for my return journey. Got back to my flat less than 24 hours of leaving.

Thursday 28th may

Had an extra 15mins in bed as by driving I can leave a bit later. Can sense that we are coming to the end of training. The trainers are letting us go to the pub for lunch tomorrow and we had to choose our meals today so that they can be ready for when we get there. Had a one to one with Chris who will be my team leader. Went ok but I'm still worried I won't pass validation week. Google mapped a route home and I was able to find it, so didn't get lost. However the traffic was really bad. Ironic that as soon as I reached the worst of it on great ancoats, on the radio there was a traffic report saying that the traffic where I was was really bad. Apparently it is because of a take that concert. When I got home I baked a blueberry almond cake for work tomorrow. Annoyed as I missed an egg out, but that's just the perfectionist in me , also I didn't seem to have enough mixture.

Wednesday 27th may

I drove to work this morning and it only took me around 25 mins, plus I then had to walk. I think probs tomorrow I will park on one of the roads closer. Had a fares day at work which wasn't as bad as I thought. Was gutted at lunch as I didn't see the humous until it was too late and I've been annoyed that they haven't had any humour in a while. Was shocked that Fred supports fox hunting. Got slightly lost on the way home, I sort of knew where I was but it took my a long time to get where I wanted and there were no signs.

Tuesday 26th may

Had my last free train ride on Saturday and got my fav biscuits. Met Lilly in town for a bit and treated her to a Starbucks. At home in the evening I had Chinese and watched Eurovision. No cheese this year and Sweden won, but I can't understand why Australia were in it.

On Sunday I had my last shift at the villa. A very busy and stressful shift as no bonnie or Mariah. I did have a rail and she has always been really nice to me. Overall it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Plus I did make £43 in tips.

My dad came with me up to Manchester yesterday and still forgot some things. I drove to East didsbury alright but go lost coming back as I had to come back on my own. Had lunch in a wetherspoons in didsbury. After yesterday I wasn't feeling brave enough to drive to work, plus I wanted a Starbucks. Had a knowledge review and scored 88% which was better than I thought. Found out last night that tasha has had her baby and she has named her Sophie.

Friday 22nd May

The phones werent so bad. But fat friday was more like obese friday. I was put with a buddy next to a desk full of cake, biscuits, chocolates and sweets. One of the cakes was one she made for the eurovision bake off. She was very annoyed that id didnt win but the cake was one of the best that i have tasted. Fred did karoke for eurovision and it was a shame that i didnt get to see it. Feeling really bad about the calls that were or will be listened in on. The quids; especially Wendy I really think don't like me, i just get a look/vibe from them.

Thursday 21st May

On Tuesday I ended up meeting Mel in town for some drinsk. Had a few two many cocktails and we ended up taking 2 pitchers from the spoons as we didnt have time to finish them there. A fun night follwed by an extra tiring day. Really struggled to keep my eyes open. The new group had stolen our comfy seats.

I have heard that the new group is quite rawdy and saw some of the girls in the toileets. Dressed like slutrs and and swearing and talking like they were in a night club. Found out that one of the girls in the groiup before us has been sacked due to her attendance. Feeling nervous about being on  the phones all day tomorrow.

Monday 18th May

Ended up being on the phones today at work and did really bad, my buddy even had to take over a couple of calls; which is further adding to my worries of not passing validation week. Saw a pretty rainbow which ended at the Ethiad Stadium. Took a pic on instagram with the caption 'they do say there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow'.

Sunday 17th May

Friday was joint business day at work and so wasnt too taxing but the day did drag. Felt like a real fatty as Fred had bought in loads of food for his birthday. Later on Lucy bought donoughts. Had to do a presentation on an airline and I got Finnair which made me happy. Also had to watch some videos for American Airlines which made me nostalgic for uni. Have been feeling that a lot lately as it has now been one year since I finished and one year since i last clasped eyes on him. After work I met mel at barbarrito to get some food and a cocktail before going to the cinema to see Pitch Perfect 2 and we ended up seaking in a bottle of wine.

Last night we went out with Steph to a place called Font on Oxford Road. I really liked it there as they do cheap cocktails that are actually good and have a large variety to choose from. We then went onto G.A.Y, which i was told is hard to get into if your not gay. So we pretended to be lesbians. Met a weird Thai girl who had lost her sister. She was with a guy and they looked like a bizzare couple. The girl was quite annoying. Then headed other to the Northern Quarter to meet Steph's bf Matt and his friends including Lawie with his new girlfriend. Luckily i didnt actaully end up being near him all night. When moving to a different bar Steph and Matt feel out and so a bit of drama. Not sure what to make of Matt's fiends and Steph ended up staying at ours.

Stpeh was still being really sick for most of today until Matt came to pick her up. Apparantly he still hasnt apologised.

Thursday 14th May

Tuesday morning I had my talk and type and had a male buddy for the first time. Think I had a bit of a crush on him. Didn't take many calls as we spent more time talking about uni and game of thrones. Did have some cringe moments. Had a knowledge review in the afternoon.

On wednesday we got our knowledge reviewxs back and i did shit. The day got shitter when I had a one to one with Lucy and she had marked one of my calls. Didn't do so well but she tried to sugarcoat it and i felt like i just didn't get anything from my one to one. She also told me that I will be in Chris's team. On the one hand i would prefer him, though i can't really decided as I havent really seen either of them, but i'm in a team with the people i would rather not be teamed with and the ones i wanted are in the other team, with the exception of Fred. Also I am increasingly staring to feel more uncomfortable around Martin. He really irritates me as he doesnt make and effor to be part of the team or participate. So yesterday I had a good cry (first time in a while), just really scared and worried i wont pass validation.

Today was better as we were not inn the classroom and had a day on being thoughful and positive thinking, ha! Bit ironic considering yesterday. Did a quiz to see what service style we have and i am a resolver. The only resover in the group with the exception of Sam. This kinda makes me like her a bit more, not that I didnt like, I just found her a bit meh, I supposse she reminds me of me in certain ways. To be honest I see myself as a bit of all of them. We did another acivity in which Martin was just being a miserable git, not even attempting. when I got home Mel told em that she had been to the gym and so I laughing said that she should tell her friend Steph that i'm sorry for my drunken behaviour the other week. From this she informed me that Lawie now has a girlfriend :(

Monday 11th May

A bit of a dash this morning, just missed my tram but luckily i didn't have to wait to long for the next tram. Still managed to grab a starbucks before my train. Changed seats again at work and this week i'm sat next to issi. Kinda annoying having to get used to a new computer plus i accidently gave my pen away and i think i have ended up with a different headset as Amy who is sat in my old seat, has moved my stuff over, or maybe it was the trainers. Been really struggling to keep up with work and feel that I'm not doing as well as I should be. Dreading the talk and type and knowledge review tomorrow. This evening all i have dome is watch some dramatic episodes of game of thrones and stalker.

Thursday 7th May

Really struggled at work for the last few mornings, really struggled to stay a wake. Changed seats again and i was sat next to Martin which i didnt particularly like. Ended up getting drunk Tuesday night. At work today it was manual fares which wasnt as bad as i thought it would be but i did struggle to keep up. I still keep thinking about Lawie, which is a bad thing as I doubt i will ever see him again and if i did i would be too embarressd to look him in the eye.

Sunday 4th April

Woke up hungover and my pj top on the wrong way round. Not done much today but I did have a good time last night and nearly ended up having sex with Lawie who is one of Steph's friends. Went home by myself as Mel went back to Ewans. On the tram back home I had a really fat woman sit next to me eventhough there were plenty of empty seats. When Mel got back she showed me some of the cringy pics from last night of me making out with Lawie. Feeling very embarrassed but wouldn't mind meeting him again.

Monday 27th April

Took the train to work but think i prefer the tram. Had my first go on the phones. Was buddied up with a girl called Amy who was lovely and much better than my last buddy. My first call was the worst; he asked to speak to supervisor eventhough it was his own fault. Other than that it went all right, mainly just struggled to read and navigate the systems, but hopefully that will get better in time. The rest of the day was not too bad. When I got home Mel's boyfriend Ewan was round and was nice to finally get to meet him. Watched the latest episode of game of thrones and was shocked by Jon Snow's behaviour.

Starting a new... again

I will try to make more time to write here. So given that I will not dwell on the time that has passed since i last posted.

Today mainly consisted of wondering where Mel was, she showed up just before I had dinner. Went to starbucks and had a white mocha frap which was even nicer than normal which may mean that full fat milk was used :(. Had to buy some tops for work as I am running out of work summer clothes. In Piccadily Gardens there was a St. Georges day parade which looked good, was worried for a moment there wouldn't be trams running but luckily they were. So I was able to make use of my new tram pass, rather than walking home.

Spent most of the afternoon going over my stuff for work. Tomorrow I will be on the phones and I am terrified but intrigued. I just hope I dont fuck up to much. Whilst I have enjoyed my first week I am worried that I wont do well enough to continue the job and struggling to remember everything.

In which people are very unhelpful

Saturday went out for drinks with some of Mel's work friends. Started off in a place called Bierkeller, then onto Bar Bar were we were joined by Hot Tom who I remember from my interview at British Gas. Shame he has a girlfriend who we later met at another bar in the NQ, along with his housemate who I got on well with. Went to a club that I can't remember the name of. Didnt really like it there and some guy mel asked t take a picture of us took her phone o try and take a pic of his penis.

Had a lazy sunday but did go to town to go to Go Falafel. Had my hair cut on Tuesday; not sure what I thought of the place. Went for drinks with Mels friend Steph. In the spoons we got talking to a creepy old Italian guy. At the next bar called Guilty, we met an Irish couple who I found a bit annoying after a while and they somehow managed to steal a bottle of Tequila. Stopped at a fast food place and nearly caused a fight.

Went to East Didsbury on the tram today to see how long it would take. Not sure how the best way to get there or what type of ticket to get. I think i have ruled out the bus because of how long it would take. Whilst I have been sent my e-contract I still dont have any details about what time to get there or where to go. Been talking to a guy on POF and I may have arranged a date for next week.

In which I finally get my start date

Been in Birmingham over the past week. Last Thursday I joined my parents for curry club. Friday I didnt do much. Saturday I got my Wembley ticket, then met Graham and Jack for bowling, Played with the barriers down for the first time and I didn't come last, even got a few strikes. It was onto the pub afterwards for a couple of drinks until Jack had to go to work. I went home to make brownies. I then went over to Grahams and his flat is quite nice. He intoduced to me to a couple of games and I quite liked Crossroads. Had pizza which wasnt cut properly. Benji lated joined us.

Sunday we went over to Grandma's for lunch and took the brownies for her. Went to visit my grandad's grave. Mum took me shopping on monday and had lunch at Bella Italia with some wine. Got home and made some classic brownies; this recipe wasnt as nice as the one i used on saturday. Tuesday I had work at villa. Found out that Lucy got the sack and i broke a glass bottle.

Back to Manchester on Wednesday but today I had to go back to brum as i needed to print and scan stuff for my new job and they have given me the 20th April for my start date, just waiting for the e-contract.

Wind!

Stalker was back on last night, and the one thing I really like about the show are the chilling song covers that get played towards the end. The rain and wind really picked up last night and I always find something nice about lying in bed at night listening to the wind and rain.

The wind and rain continued into the day and at times it was hard to walk and even the massive billboards were shaking. Rang procius again still got no where and sent them a shitty email as at first i couldn't get through to them on the phone.

In which still nothing happens

Not really done much other than went to asda and found the cheap bin :)

In which not much has happened

Yesterday was a bit gloomy, I suppose it might have been down to the weather. Mel and me got through 2 bottles of wine and baked some vegan gluten free cookies which were very tasty, they did however crumble when picked up, Maybe I should have left them in the oven longer. Had the flat to myself last night as Mel went to the cinema with her boyfriend to see Get Hard. I ended up watching a really bad movie called the The Reef which I didnt watch till the end. Today havent done much but I am thinking about doing something more productive. I want to get more involved with my local community.

In which nothing is getting better

Last night I used my Love Lettuce face mask from lush which i enjoyed. Afterwards I found Mel asleep on the sofa.

Phoned procius again and still getting nowhere! Got my eyebrows done to usual crap standard of Superdrug. Took my recipt for the kettle to Jordons, hopefully I will get re-embersed. And still my life is going nowhere.

In which they continue to lie to me

Had to buy a new kettle this morning to replace the one that failed the pac test yesterday. Called procius again and spoke to Heather yet again. Finally I can see that Kate and Co have replied but its not the right thing, pretty much found out that they have just been fobbing me off all week.This is causing me so much stress and finding it really hard to keep it together. Just feeling really lonely in Manchester and all my fears are coming true. I have no life here. Also the battery in my watch has broke and there are no clocks in my flat.

In which I over indulge

Called procius again and got no where and found out the process will take even longer as it will have to go through quality assurance; meaning i was lied to last week. Went into town with Mel to get ingredients for baking. Not so much baking but rather raw creme eggs, which did not exactly go to plan, but did taste nice. Whilst waiting for the tram we went to a burrito place to get some lunch to take back with us and it was really nice. An electrician came round to do some pac testing. The kettle failed so now we have no kettle :(.

In which it hails

Can't remember the last time it hailed but just as i left to walk home it started hailing and it was proper hail, even slipped over a couple of times. Still no luck on the job front. Phoned them again and talked to Heather again and she told me the exact same thing as yesterday, clearly she is lying to me about something as its not adding up. Still all alone as Mel hasn't come back yet and dunno where she is.

In which the stress continues

I was on my phone at 9 to call procius as i was not happy with the e-mail i received on Friday. Not as bad as I thought the problem now is with Kate & Co. I will call them myself tomorrow if I don't hear anything. I just hope I have the courage or that I don't get upset or say anything rude. As i'm feeling very stressed and angry. Aside from that I had a dream about my graduation and he was in it. Also had another reminder of him when watching the Jeremy Kyle show; with a certain date. The show did make me laugh due to what was said about candy crush, ha. Did my food shopping and watched the Sex and City movie.

In which I keep forgetting to post

So Tuesday night I had my first night out in Manchester. Went to a nearby bar and had a nice cocktail before walking to Deansgate to a place called Bar Bar where I had a nice science themed cocktail which was served in a smoking/steaming test tube. Also had a shot. It was then onto Satan's Hollow which was bittersweet as it brought back memories of detention because of the type of music they play there. Vaguely remember randomly making out with a guy who looked like a less good looking Sam from Supernatual. Lost Mel on the way out. Had to google the number for a taxi firm and ended up with Street Cars. As soon as we got out the taxi Mel was sick. Got in and make sweet potato chips.

The next day my dad came to visit to bring me some more clothes. He then took me to Urmston to go to a wetherspoons. Alright but they forgot the peri peri sauce.

Today I had an interview with Phillips and Cohen. Seemed to go alright but not sure. Getting some more experience of traveling on the tram. Though on the tram there i was sat next to a really annoying woman as her music was really loud. On the way back a woman who looks severely skinny was there with what appeared to be a newborn baby, who was constantly screaming.

In which i spend my first full week in Manchester

Yesterday I had to get up early to attend an induction for a job which I'm doubtful about, but i will still try for anyway. Left with Mel on the tram; she was going home after work. Didn't do much the rest of the day.

Today I just went to Asda to buy a surf board, which i looked silly walking back with it. Felt a bit guilty for not going home this weekend.

In which we have hot water

Went to have a bath last night but no hot water and this makes me sad. Ended up watching the film I Am Legend. Very good film and reminded me of the presentation for American Gothic I did.

Called the letting agents about the hot water and that got sorted straight away. The guy who came was the same guy as last time. Went to sort my standing order out but will wait till Saturday as they have posted it when they shouldn't have if they didn't think there would be enough time. As I don't want to pay twice I shall leave it to Saturday to see if i have to make a manual payment. Still no luck on the job front.

In which I actually see 50 Shades of Grey

Last night Mel and me went to Asda, saw quite a few joggers and saw a very weird sight. Two guys were buying giant knomes; I sight I thought I would never see. Today Mel and me got our standing orders sorted and went to Wagamammas; had a warm chili tofu salad which was nicer than previous ones I've had. Went to see 50 shades of grey, which i did actually enjoy though the acting was really bad, Jamie Dornan's irish accent kept coming through. Dakota's hair kept annoying me. And of course the film made me think of a certain someone!

As it stands it is unlikely that I will go home this weekend. Still have no idea what to get my mum for mothers day.

In which I have internet

So I have been neglectful again, but basically i'm back in Manchester, internet got installed to day, Still worried about money and still not heard about my job. Also stressing about how much water and electricity I use. did see two cute guys on the balcony in the flats opposite. One still had his dressing gown on both when i saw him in the morning and in the afternoon.

In which the stress continues

Had to put up with my dad all day. There was a bit of snow this morning which was unexpected and my train was cancelled which i was very annoyed about. Getting a bit annoyed with all this background check stuff. Phoned them and spoke to two different people as the first guy i spoke to was incompetent. Found out that they have one reference back but havent even contacted my most recent ones. I just want this all to be done with asap.

In which it has been a while

Had a lack of internet and busy with the move to Manchester, so I will just start from today.

Anette had responded to my comment on instargram, she never properly answered me question and I couldn'tbe bothered to point out that i was asking for the primary source, so unless Madonna has become a journalist...

Went to visit Liz. Her flat absolutely stunk, bust she did say that the litter tray was full and one of the cats had pooed in the sink. found out that I will be wearing a purple bridesmaid dress. Haven't really done much else today.

In which I finally get a job

Definately approve of the new Villa manager and on Sunday he was in one of the boxes and it was not just me who was liking him. Other hostess and the ladies in box 23. Good shift overall as they won.

Monday was a bit grim but I did go over to Clair's to help with Naomi's project on North America, not sure if i helped much. When I got home i discovered that I have been offered a job with British Gas.

Yesterday was very stressful with trying to get everything packed for the move. Didn't realise that my parents wouldn't be in during the evening as they were out for a meal.

Drove up to Manchester with my dad and got a bit lost. Ended up going via Didsbury. Found the letting agent and paid my deposit, signed the contract and was given the keys. Went to the new flat and its quite nice but room is a bit small, nowhere near enough space for all my stuff. The rooms i had at uni were the best rooms that i have had. Drove back to Brum and the traffic was horrendus.

Last week at Centro

This week has been my last week at Centro. However on Wednesday I went up to Manchester for an interview; didn't go so well. Shame as the area of East Didsbury was really nice.

On Thursday my parents came back from America and they bought my some gum eventhough i have been good and given it up. Also had a hard rock cafe t-shirt, fruit loops and ghiradehli chocolate. Went to the spoons for tea and they gave me a beef madras instead of a flaming dragon curry but i didnt realise until too late.

Friday was a bit emotional as it was my last day at Centro and they guys there were reallu sweet and gave me some parting gifts and a card and also a gift card for Next. Went to the colmore bar and grill for some drinks and they had my fav rose and had drinks brought for me, which i always like.

Today was valentines day and as a singleton i didnt do anything. I did get a happy valentines day message twice off my stalker. I did treat myself to a large white chocolate mocha from starbucks and they drew a heart on the cup. Villa got appointed Tim Sherwood as their new manager and hopefully he will do some good. Earlier today a thought came to me 'my life is one big car crash in slow motion'. My mum figured out how to get the ipod to work in my car and so hopefully i will be able to give it a try tomorrow.

Must get organised

Lillybeth has asked me to be a bridesmaid which makes me very happy. On Thursday I was offered a job interview at British Airways for next wednesday which is slightly annoying as I have to get the day off work and he wanted me to come in early that day as well. Got an e-mail about an automatic enrolment for a pension thing and I can't figure out how to get out of it. Really pissing me off and making me stressed. Had an evening indluging on terry's chocolate orange and watching Harry Potter and the Philospher's stone.

Friday night I had quite a fright as at about 10 at night the door bell rang. I wasn't expecting anyone so i was a bit intrigued. Turns out it was just a takeaway delivery guy who had the wrong house.

Had work at the Villa on Saturday. Managed to get the car off the drive which I was very proud of. Got roped into doing check out which meant I had to stay an hour longer and stand in the cold for 2 hours. Also got to try some expensive wine as it was from the bottle opened three weeks ago.

Today I just felt stressed about life. Posted the cheque for Mel's dad and filled the car up with petrol.

Getting used to the cold

Had a very strange call at work, the customer's details just did not match. Had an evening indulging and watched Exorisct the Beging.

Stating to get really tired of everyone at work asking if I have heard anything yet. Nick has said that I need to arrange leaving drinks. I just hope people will show up to it. Overall a very quiet day at work. I heard a good quote on Eastenders; 'It's like crawling through glass only to fall into a fire.'

All alone

On Wednesday my parents went to Florida leaving me all on my lonesome, alright for some. Very icey on Thursday morning and spent the evening watching Cruel Intentions indulging on warm buttery bread and chocolate.

Friday again was very icy and a guy slipped over on the platform and was badly injured, even had to call an ambulance. Got an email inviting me to an assessment centre for Cabin Crew in Manchester. I applied for the job way back in October, thought it had come to nothing. James messaged me for the first time out of the blue.

On Saturday I went to the guild meet and was disappointed that a certain person was not there. Found out that Liz and Liam have got engaged. Pleased for them. I left early as I was so cold . Treated myself to a bottle of wine and that guy who wont leave me alone asked me out to dinner the next time he is in Brum. Never replied to him.

Went over to Tasha's and her place is quite nice. She has finally been diagnosed with bi-polar which I have guessed for years. It was a bit awkward at first as she did not like what I had to say, as I think she is a complete fucking idiot! I didn't particularly want to go see her but felt bad if I bailed. Currently watching Bridget Jones's Dairy and I have to say I think I may be a bridget Jones, far to many similarities.

Another failed job interview

Last Wednesday was uneventful. Thursday I was down the spoons but no wine. Friday was my dad's leaving do but I went to Bella Italia with mum for a meal first. Had a nice chicken with peri peri sauce and shared some garlic bread with was not as nice as normal. The night was very bittersweet and I really feel for my dad. His work colleague wrote a poem for him and it was interesting getting to speak to them. However one has not left me alone on facebook. Was very drunk and woke up next morning fully dressed, scarf and all the next morning. Felt very ill all of Saturday, perked up a bit by the evening which was good as I met Liz to go to hers for birthday drinks. Some of her friends joined later and feeling really bad as I fancy the guy who is only 17. Had pizza which was not so nice as it was very greasy and had no crusts.

Had work on Sunday and they put Lucy and me in Mcgregors. Had a slight fall out with one of the supervisors there as I did not realise at the time her was a supervisor. Had far less people to serve but had to do other things and well there were a lot more managers in that area. Was sent home early which I did not like.

On Monday I had to move desks again as Chris was back, overall it was a very tiring day. Today I went to Manchester for a recruitment morning. Totally fucked up. Presentations have never been my strong point. Shame as I would have actually liked this job, plus I desperately need a job in Manchester. Now just waiting for the phone call to say they will not be inviting me to an interview.

Snow

Found out the sad news that the actress who plays Deidre in Corries has died, was then sent an article about a guy who I went to school with has stabbed to death his parents. Watched stalker last night but at the end they said it was going on a mid season break and will return in the spring. Seriously? Thats like a quarter of a year.

Nick was back at work and one of the first things he asked was how the job hunting was going :( He then added that he wants me to stay until the begining of February. Did some sticking for the child DD batch which was good as I got to take the completed one to a certain guy in production. Had one daft caller asking if she could train her dog to put her fare in for her, she was very trying. On my way home it started snowing. To think when I was younger I loved the snow, maybe a part of me deep down still does. Once I got home I had a bit of a surprise as nobody was home. Turns out they had been to the pub.

Busy Busy day

Very cold this morning but I don't get way freezing weather makes the main headlines in Janyary, surely its a given. Work was very busy pretty much non-stop, but at least I didn't have too many difficult calls.I did get a call from an agency in Manchester and call from another worker there. Called them back during my lunch break but not sure if much will come from it.

Currently watching a very dramatic episode of Coronation street.

Last gum

My mum thought my car had been stolen as she did not realize that I had taken it to sainsburys. One thing that annoys me about the car park in sainsburys are the car wash people. They stand around in spaces that I want to park in.

Not really done much today, stressed about all the usual stuff. Watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows part 1, made me feel bittersweet, I miss the days when I could spend most of my spare time re-reading Harry Potter,I'm not sure I can bring myself to even read them these days. Currently eating my last piece of gum :(

Plodding along

On monday the new girl Vanessa started at work. Over the past week I have made a few errors at work which I do feel bad about. On Thursday I met mel and her friends Chris, Emma and Sam at TGIs for a couple of cocktails and then onto the spoons, I then got dragged to Luna but i left early as I had work the nest morning.

Today I had work at the Villa, they lost. Left late as the people in my box who were Liverpool fans were heavy drinkers but they did give me a £20 tip.Bit odd at one point as they looked the door from the inside with Wayne.

Meh

Thursday was the regular night at the spoons and was later joined by my parents friend and ended up getting through a second bottle of wine. Had some baileys when we got home.

Friday I woke up feeling not so great. Had to move desks at work as the new girl will be going where I sit. The annoying thing is now everyone can see my screen. Went in to the direct sales line for the first time and didn't do to badly. Quite a sobering day with all the shocking sceens from France over the past couple of days.

Today has been quite boring however it has been nice to just chill. Waiting to hear back from Mel as she was in Manchester yesterday and found us a flat. So on the 18th Feb I will be moving to Manchester.

Hate being ill

Well I had work at Villa on Sunday and it was an FA cup match against Blackpool which they won, then went and played badminton in the evening.

Back to work at Centro on Monday and now sat next to Chris, bit of a mess up with some of the older persons passes.

Tuesday was feeling more ill and had a couple bad nights sleep, found out I might be staying at Centro for a bit longer.

For once I didn't wake up in the middle of the night freezing. Slightly quieter day at work, but my voice was starting to go but feel like i am starting to get better. Had an hour of training on direct debit so a bit more pressure as I will be getting more responsibility. Quite glad that I will be getting to stay longer as it means i get more time to check out the guy I like. Made plans on saturday to go to Manchester with Mel to look at flats.

Getting know where

Managed to construct my mums hula hoop last night, my biggest achievement ha. Shame the same couldn't be said for working out my iphone, couldn't even get the sim card in.

Went to the virgin shop and got my phone sorted but still waiting for it be activated. Was brave enough to finally try an eggnog latte from starbucks and i have to say it was rather nice. I'm also pretty sure that the girl who served me also works at villa; she was the one i usually see at check-in  and at the last she was rather hungover ha.

Started baking cup cakes for Luke and Kirstyn as a thank you for the xmas present.

A day of set backs

Went to Manchester for some flat viewings but only saw one as they had to change the times. Neither Mel or me met the criteria however i am now worried as i don't have a full time job. I did however enjoy seeing Manchester and had a nice lunch in Wagamamas and after the flat viewing we went to the Hard Rock Cafe and had a very nice cocktail called 'Blue Kanabu-na'. Went down a bit to quickly.

A New Year

I suppose I have Sue to thank for me continuation of this. Yesterday I read through all the posts i had made before, which made for an interesting read. Hopefully I will stick with it this time.

Thankfully I wasn't too hungover and managed to drive to work. Saw the actor from harry potter and game of thrones again. Alright shift. Just chilled in the evening.