Thursday 7th May

Really struggled at work for the last few mornings, really struggled to stay a wake. Changed seats again and i was sat next to Martin which i didnt particularly like. Ended up getting drunk Tuesday night. At work today it was manual fares which wasnt as bad as i thought it would be but i did struggle to keep up. I still keep thinking about Lawie, which is a bad thing as I doubt i will ever see him again and if i did i would be too embarressd to look him in the eye.