Wednesday 29th July

Had my first 7.30 start and got to work really early. Not too bad as it is quiet in the mornings and it went quick but find it weird that lunch break is so late. Had a range of calls and learnt something new as made a fair few errors. Had someone who died on the aircraft and someone with a collapsed lung. Had one ass who was drinking gin and tonic. Glad he had gone by the time i had come back from duty as he was demanding to speak to a supervisor. Started to make a tally of my calls; only answered 24 calls, which is not good as i am no where near meeting my targets. Its a shame that our outbound calls are taken into account and i think i probably would meet my targets that way. Got a Facebook request from my boss at centro. I do miss the people there and its a shame that where i work now you don't have that close vibe as there are so many and you work at different times and constantly sitting somewhere different.

Tuesday 28th July

On Saturday my mum came to visit, only brief but she took me to lunch at the spoons. In the evening i last minute decided to join Amelia in visiting Gareth. Got far too drunk for what I intended and woke up far to late for my liking. Only just made it to work on time. Overall it wasn't too bad being in on a Sunday.

On monday i had to join the rest in shift seating. I was sat back near where i originally sat in creche. Alright but just felt crowded. Today i was sat in a different place. Way down the other side by the window. Alright down there, though it was quite far to walk to duty and i ended up going to duty quite a lot today. Finally got to take my toil which is always nice; getting to leave work early, though i do always feel a bit guilty, which i know is stupid. I'm starting to worry that something may be wrong with car in regards to the steering, as it seems to keep going to one side; although that might just be because the roads are very wet.

Friday 24th June

Lots of twat drivers on the road on my way to work. At least work went ok and made it the whole day without getting any white slips from fares. Chris was back in today. So far I seem to be doing ok without floorwalkers, though i did go up to them for some quick questions. I did like today as i like sitting next to kirsty as she always makes me laugh.

Thursday 23rd July

Had Kirsty to keep me company on the late shift, felt like i was struggling as i was very tired even on my way there. Got stuck for 23 minutes but at least they were nice and very grateful for my help. Did have to call through to fares in India which as annoying, the woman was so slow. Had a different shift today, which i actually quite liked. The day did go quite quickly. Was meant to have a one to one with Chris but it got cancelled as he was ill. Had to cancel my plans again with gareth because i have come on, which is annoying and i miss him and i won't be able to see him till next thursday as friday is my next day off after saturday.

Tuesday 21st July

Yesday i started shifts and i was on the late one. Felt weird but also kinda liked that i was sat all on my own. A bit scary not having the floorwalkers. Had my first budget, which is annoying as i was only following the advice i was given from floorwalkers. Ended up getting stuck on a call as i had a very annoying woman who wanted to speak to a supervisor, there literally wasn't any supervisors. I don't think I'm going to get the time back as i went to the dose who wrote it down, but i don't think anything will get done about it, and i didn't get his name.

Today i had off and it all for myself. A bit boring really, felt kinda weird. Was going to go see Gareth but cba and well i dunno i have a rule no booty calls on a work night. Feeling kinda gross anyway. Should be seeing him on friday but i might have to cancel that as i might be on. I can tell that what i feel for him is genuine as he is now starting to make me sad, but that is more to do with my own thinking, but i do really really like him. Amelia made me laugh, as she came home drunk, and she is adorable.

Sunday 19th Jul

Thursday i had a really rude american woman on the phone who kept going on about being deaf. Amelia's mum came to stay over and had some wine. Friday I had a one to one with Wendy, still not doing great with my calls. Had to listen to one of my calls, and i absolutely hate the sound of my own voice. Very cringy and they can still see what you don on screen even when the call has finished. After work went to meet g for dinner. He took me to lust, luck, liquor and burn. A very nice mexican place, had some drinks there whilst we waited for a table. Had a very nice burrito and shared some fries. Would definetly go there again. Also realised earlier today that James used to work there and was wondering if he had gone back to work there after he left ba. Went to spoons for a drink. We also went to the spar to get a bottle and they were playing nightswish; sahara. Went back to mine.

Saturday got up late felt a bit awkward the way i always do the next morning and was glad when he left. Didn't really do much for the rest of the day and went round to his in the evening and it was a very good evening. Came back this morning, at least i managed to get away. Though i do feel like I'm starting to miss him. Scared as i can feel myself falling for him and i don't feel he is as into me as i am him, or that he doesn't really want much else other than sex, which i am ok with, just scared of getting hurt. Starting to get annoyed that ewan is around all the time.

Wednesday 15th July

Had to move desks at work as we are now doing shift seating. Annoying as it means i have to keep moving all my stuff around. It would be better if i had draws, which we still don't, yet the group who started after us got draws today. Really takes the piss. Had a really rude woman, normally people are rude but she was being directly rude to me, going on about me not talking proper english, and her an american, seriously? Been thinking a lot about G and I'm not sure how i feel about him. On the one had in do really like him, i really like spending time with him and he makes me happy, but i doubt if i do really like or if its a case of i just want to like him. Or maybe is it my subconcious telling me not to, as i don't want to fall for him i like i did with someone else. I keep asking myself what if he just stopped talking to me and i never saw him again. I tell myself that my ego would be hurt but other than that i wouldn't be bothered. I genuinely don't know, as how can i know until it happens.

Tuesday 14th July

Work wasn't as bad as i thought. After work I went to G's and saw his new house, his house mate came and interrupted though. He made me chilli for dinner which was nice. The house is alright but parking is quite tight but i will be ok. Shame that his room is so small. Really enjoyed spending time with him.

Managed to get an hour off the phones today as i had to go to a meeting for quality. Had an email for a one to one with Wendy. She makes me really nervous and am scared to meet her as she listens to my calls. Chris also came and sat next to me and listened to one of my calls. The call didn't go very well, was really nervous though, also doesn't help that i fancy him.

Sunday 12th July

Took the banana bread into work and the people who tried it seemed to like it. When i got home G was already there. It s nice that he wanted to come over, didn't do my best effort with dinner. Had some good sex and really liked that he stayed the night, particularly as in the morning i got birthday sex.

On thursday i went to birmingham. My mum met me at new street. Went to the usual spoons for curry night, which i really enjoyed. On the friday i went up town with my mum and had lunch at bella italia, and had shared a bottle of processeco. Went for a nap but fell asleep, so only made it to bowling just in time. Lost at bowling as usual. Went back to mine and had a fun night with friends, luckily luke bough his cards against humanity as i forgot mine, and i won. I noticed that benji is looking quite skin, which is properly all the drugs he does. On saturday I went up town and went to the brook and then hung out with the guild, which was boring to be honest, also i was disappointed that corey wasn't there. Came back to manchester today and not really done much.

Tuesday 7th July

Ended up being on a call for 98 minutes but at least I didn't have to get a tl. Was embarrassing when my tl came over to tell me I had been on wrap too long and to take my break, but I was busy sorting some bookings out. Made some banana bread tonight which looks and smells lush.

Monday 6th July

Saw the roster at work for my first week on shifts, not too bad, got mixed feelings about doing shift, but it will be nice to have flexibility. Work wasn't too bad, some stupid caller who had booked an infant but the infant was yet to be born. Got annoyed in asda as they shut the tills and I hate self service. G has left his bus pass here and I feel guilty about not trying to get it back to him.

Sunday 5th July

My car passed its mot and it only cost £21. Went round to Ewan's flat. Quite a nice flat and able to climb onto the roof. Enjoyed making out with g. Mel was passed out by midnight and everyone went out except me and g who stayed in the flat for a bit before going back to mine. We tried to have sex but he couldn't get it up. Was going to try the next morning but Amelia interrupted and stayed with us for a bit. Tried again and had some trouble but got there in the end. Whilst I did enjoy and glad to finally have sex again, his penis was a bit on the small side, but I'm not sure it was fully erect. One  of  Ewan's friends fixed out blinds, which I'm very happy about. They all left to get a burrito whilst me and g ordered pizza and then made out for the rest of the dayin my bed. Was glad when he finally left as I just wanted some me time. He left the rest of the pizza here so lots of food for me to enjoy.

Friday 3rd July

A new group came on the phones so we lost a load of our floor walkers. Had a team meeting which was outside. I was glad of this as it was such a nice day, but I did get sun burn, never expected to get sunburn at work. Mainly I just liked getting an hour with hy and an hour off the phones. It was also nice to meet the rest of my team. Though it does look like the fam trip is cancelled.

Thursday 2nd July

Found a quicker way to get to work and easier. Fred is starting to be really annoying, acting like a child. Starting to feel a bit more relaxed at work, I guess I will know at the end of crèche. After work I went straight home and then went to meet g. Just hung out in the park which felt really nice, even if Mel does keep embarrassing me. I guess I do actually really like. I think about him a lot of the time and can really feel something for him, but there is still something a bit off, but I am looking forward to seeing him again, though I am scared he is going off me. Felt proud of myself for driving to his and back without getting lost. Got back just in time as there was a thunder storm. Did get interrogated by Mel.

Work is really starting to drag these days. Was happy that I got to dress own today due to the hot weather, though today was not as bad.