Well last night I watched a bit of First Dates. There was a guy on there who was quite geeky and had terrible hair. I also found him to be a bit annoying in his manner of speaking. On his date he was asked his interest and the music he liked. He said obsecure heavy metal bands. At this point I was thinking please don't say Nightwish. Well that was the first band he mentioned followed by Lacuna Coil, Within Temptation, Alestorm amongst others. I laughed so hard that I hit myself in the face and had a nose bleed.
Terrible nights sleep, kept feeling stressed over my dissertation and getting in binded and what not. Saw Max on my way to lecture, he was going to Oxford. In my lecture we were shown this video of a guy who goes all around the world getting people together dancing. The music being played in the background was really nice and just made me want to go out and travel more.
Thursday, 27 February 2014
Wednesday, 26 February 2014
26/2/2014
The Vampire Diaries did not disappoint last night and there was a new character who is yet another hottie, Enzo I think his name is. Went to put on clean pyjamas last night but didn't have any clean winter tops, and well I was cold last night and I woke up quite a few times.
Went into town this morning just to get a few toiletries and a pyjama top. Proud of myself for resisting all temptations especially when I had a dream of drinking milkshakes last night. Spent the afternoon in my room reading, just trying to not get too stressed and just take each day as it comes.
Went into town this morning just to get a few toiletries and a pyjama top. Proud of myself for resisting all temptations especially when I had a dream of drinking milkshakes last night. Spent the afternoon in my room reading, just trying to not get too stressed and just take each day as it comes.
Tuesday, 25 February 2014
25/2/2014
Annoyed that I just missed the bus which meant that I didn't quite make the 12.30 train so had to get the 1.30. Wanted to buy a drink from the shop on the platform but was surprised that they were closing but he let me quickly get a drink. Alright train journey, managed to finish a draft of my chapter 3 and emailed it to Denise. Got my fav type of the free biscuits on the train. My dad picked me up from the station and on the way home he told me that I would have to get a bus from Basingstoke the next day when I go back. This put me in a fowl mood which I took out on everyone, which I do feel bad for but I did later apologise. It didn't help that I got home at the same time as Vicki and all her lot arrived, then my nan, Karen and Daisy came round, so too much noise and I needed to get ready to meet Lillybeth and then go to the pub at 5 to see Graham and Reema. Had a couple nice drinks with them.
I am happy for Lillybeth as things are going well with Liam and I was surprised when she said that he had said that he was worried about me. Was home by 7 and did some more work and had some more drinks whilst my family were all out having a meal in a pub which turned out to be one of the roughest pubs in Birmingham.
Sunday it was Ryan's christening. Lasted less than an hour which I was very thankful for, but I did have Josh next to me who kept me entertained. Especially when he asked me why babies are christened and I told him it was to save the soul from purgatory. I also had a big hug off Naomi which made me feel loved. Went to a pub for the after party and I won £20. Not sure how, all I did was pick a team at random. Watched the villa match on TV which was disappointing as they lost.
Just about got the train, didn't really like the journey back as sat behind someone very annoying. They had there Skype and using it watch the winter Olympics ceremony thing, but I did have cake, free biscuits and wine.
The coach wasn't too bad, but I was so tired when I got in.
Yesterday I finished a draft for my conclusion, now I just need to edit it, but still just constantly feeling stressed. Didn't go to the rotoract meeting as I wasn't feeling great.
Today haven't done much, but looking forward to TVD being back on TV tonight.
I am happy for Lillybeth as things are going well with Liam and I was surprised when she said that he had said that he was worried about me. Was home by 7 and did some more work and had some more drinks whilst my family were all out having a meal in a pub which turned out to be one of the roughest pubs in Birmingham.
Sunday it was Ryan's christening. Lasted less than an hour which I was very thankful for, but I did have Josh next to me who kept me entertained. Especially when he asked me why babies are christened and I told him it was to save the soul from purgatory. I also had a big hug off Naomi which made me feel loved. Went to a pub for the after party and I won £20. Not sure how, all I did was pick a team at random. Watched the villa match on TV which was disappointing as they lost.
Just about got the train, didn't really like the journey back as sat behind someone very annoying. They had there Skype and using it watch the winter Olympics ceremony thing, but I did have cake, free biscuits and wine.
The coach wasn't too bad, but I was so tired when I got in.
Yesterday I finished a draft for my conclusion, now I just need to edit it, but still just constantly feeling stressed. Didn't go to the rotoract meeting as I wasn't feeling great.
Today haven't done much, but looking forward to TVD being back on TV tonight.
Friday, 21 February 2014
21/02/2014
Quite a shock to wake up to a blue clear sky this morning. Didn't have a lecture today as it was reading week so I got to spend longer in bed.
So whilst I was walking into the KKB, there was 3 Americans coming out, who I walked past. One of them was her. This was the first time that I have seen her close and the first time I have actually seen her knowing it was her since Detention. And yeah I did feel a stab of pain. At least when I was in the KKB I was able to use my voucher for free coffee and cake, so I got millionaire shortbread (one of my fav things). I needed it after that.
After lunch I left the LC for the library. Walking out I just happened to look over the balcony down into the foodhall and I saw him. Still overall I'm trying to keep positive, taking each day at a time. In the library Dan came and sat at the computer next to me. Had a nice chat. He is a nice to guy to chat to, though I do feel embarrassed every time I see him because of that night at Detention and the state I was in.
Not sure how I feel about going home now as lillybeth who wanted a girly chat, I barely gonna see her as she will be going to Liam's and she will be with in the day as well, as I offered to pick her up on the way to mine from the station.
So whilst I was walking into the KKB, there was 3 Americans coming out, who I walked past. One of them was her. This was the first time that I have seen her close and the first time I have actually seen her knowing it was her since Detention. And yeah I did feel a stab of pain. At least when I was in the KKB I was able to use my voucher for free coffee and cake, so I got millionaire shortbread (one of my fav things). I needed it after that.
After lunch I left the LC for the library. Walking out I just happened to look over the balcony down into the foodhall and I saw him. Still overall I'm trying to keep positive, taking each day at a time. In the library Dan came and sat at the computer next to me. Had a nice chat. He is a nice to guy to chat to, though I do feel embarrassed every time I see him because of that night at Detention and the state I was in.
Not sure how I feel about going home now as lillybeth who wanted a girly chat, I barely gonna see her as she will be going to Liam's and she will be with in the day as well, as I offered to pick her up on the way to mine from the station.
Thursday, 20 February 2014
20/2/2014
Only got one prediction for the Brits right last night and that was Tom Odell for best breakthrough. Couldn't get to sleep last night, wasn't tired and my stomache really hurt, properly due to all the dry apricots I ate. Whilst I was bored I watched some South park on my ipad and then depressing songs on youtube, at which point a random thought occurred to me. I wondered if she was on youtube. So on a whim I typed her name in and found that she had a channel. She can play guitar and sing, she just keeps o getting more attractive. She is also a directioner and Liam is her fav. I also found her instagram and saw more pictures I didn't want to see.
Walking to uni this morning I saw the mother of all walk of shames. James Whitcher in a short dress. To make matters worse it was completely pissing it down with rain. Group meeting was a little productive, but they are all a nice bunch of people. The lecture which was meant to start at 12 didn't actually start till 20 past 1. Emma had some tasks for us, Do a survey which her and Hugues were doing for research, write ideas down for the 3rd year party and the national student survey. Well I had actually already done this survey but she still gave me a voucher for either pizza or cake. Then two girls in my group gave me their vouchers as they never go to main campus, so now I will have 3 extra ones which I will look forward to using. Will go for a pizza this time with one of them. Also have some plan for Saturday, hopefully.
Walking to uni this morning I saw the mother of all walk of shames. James Whitcher in a short dress. To make matters worse it was completely pissing it down with rain. Group meeting was a little productive, but they are all a nice bunch of people. The lecture which was meant to start at 12 didn't actually start till 20 past 1. Emma had some tasks for us, Do a survey which her and Hugues were doing for research, write ideas down for the 3rd year party and the national student survey. Well I had actually already done this survey but she still gave me a voucher for either pizza or cake. Then two girls in my group gave me their vouchers as they never go to main campus, so now I will have 3 extra ones which I will look forward to using. Will go for a pizza this time with one of them. Also have some plan for Saturday, hopefully.
Wednesday, 19 February 2014
19/2/2014
It was so random last night, Benji messaged me asking if he could come visit me next weekend. Its nice that he wants to visit but I just feel that it would be awkward if he did. Its a long way for him to drive just to hang out.
I found the fb group for VESA Fiji and found that there is another girl from Birmingham going.
Every morning its another day, just trying to fight another day. One of my favourite songs at the moment came on; Emilie Autumn - One Step In Front Of The Other.
Bumped into Luke, I thought he was meant to be selling cakes today. Leaving the library I saw Jon and we talked about dissertations. Also had a brief chat with Sean, he thinks the CIA will arrest him because of his dissertation. So walking out of uni I saw him and yea it hurt. He was with one of the americans and they went to Beachglade where the Americans all stay, so properly going to see her. At least he didn't see me as I was walking behind him.
The evening will be spent watching the Brit awards, and im regretting my predictions already.
I found the fb group for VESA Fiji and found that there is another girl from Birmingham going.
Every morning its another day, just trying to fight another day. One of my favourite songs at the moment came on; Emilie Autumn - One Step In Front Of The Other.
Bumped into Luke, I thought he was meant to be selling cakes today. Leaving the library I saw Jon and we talked about dissertations. Also had a brief chat with Sean, he thinks the CIA will arrest him because of his dissertation. So walking out of uni I saw him and yea it hurt. He was with one of the americans and they went to Beachglade where the Americans all stay, so properly going to see her. At least he didn't see me as I was walking behind him.
The evening will be spent watching the Brit awards, and im regretting my predictions already.
Tuesday, 18 February 2014
18/2/2014
My lecture yesterday got cancelled, which is a tad annoying as he said that we will now have a lecture in week 9, but at least this way I got more time to spend on my dissertation. I was meant to go round to Luke's for rotaract meeting and baking. I gave it a miss as I didn't want to go back outin the rain. Plus this whole bake sale ended up being a miss as he didn't organise it properly, which doesn't surprise me.
Today I didn't really do anything, came back from uni early as I wasn't feeling great. Turns out there were some other people doing a cake sale at the terrace bar. Some people raising money for a trip to Kenya, similar to what I will be doing. I did get a very nice rocky road. Currently getting very pissed off at my laptop, which is actually quite often.
Today I didn't really do anything, came back from uni early as I wasn't feeling great. Turns out there were some other people doing a cake sale at the terrace bar. Some people raising money for a trip to Kenya, similar to what I will be doing. I did get a very nice rocky road. Currently getting very pissed off at my laptop, which is actually quite often.
Sunday, 16 February 2014
16/2/2014
Friday was shit, apart from seeing rishi in the learning café where he tried to convince me to go into town with him and get KFC. Left uni at the wrong time. The weather got really bad and carried on throughout the night. It was stressing me out, I was worried about my car but it was alright. I have never known wind like it, barely got any sleep it was so loud and I was stressed and anxious.
In the morning I noticed in the garden that the spare fences had been blown over and broke the bench. Went to Beth's house party, got very drunk. Did well playing beer pong. I also got a cleansweep in paranoid for most likely to be into bondage. Very true! But unfortunately i'm not getting none and the guy who introduced me ditched me, I guess he was never that interested. I met a guy called Jon who said he was drawn to me because I was quiet and not loud like everyone else. Had a very good and thoughtful conversation with him. I had actually heard of him from when I have been fb stalking as he does Benchball.
Very hungover today and feeling very down. Hit with another wave of anguish and hurt. I need to sort my life out. Say that far too often these days.
In the morning I noticed in the garden that the spare fences had been blown over and broke the bench. Went to Beth's house party, got very drunk. Did well playing beer pong. I also got a cleansweep in paranoid for most likely to be into bondage. Very true! But unfortunately i'm not getting none and the guy who introduced me ditched me, I guess he was never that interested. I met a guy called Jon who said he was drawn to me because I was quiet and not loud like everyone else. Had a very good and thoughtful conversation with him. I had actually heard of him from when I have been fb stalking as he does Benchball.
Very hungover today and feeling very down. Hit with another wave of anguish and hurt. I need to sort my life out. Say that far too often these days.
Thursday, 13 February 2014
13/2/2014
Feeling so overwhelmed with uni work. Hit by another storm yesterday.
Trying to be more positive today. Was a little annoyed that my group meeting was cancelled. Lecture was really boring. Have decided firmly that the event industry is not for me. I started to think that my dream job would be a travel writer. Went to the learning café after lecture and Sean was there yet again, it does annoy me a bit that he is always there. Was going to go to book club but having not gone this year I feel that its a bit late to get into it now although it would be nice to make some new friends. Came home to a valentines card from the bestie, which really put a smile on my face, just what I needed. I can't make my mind up if I regret deleting him off facebook now or not, by the looks of things he hasn't been to Bop the last two weeks. I can deal with things now but at the time I needed a complete cut.
Trying to be more positive today. Was a little annoyed that my group meeting was cancelled. Lecture was really boring. Have decided firmly that the event industry is not for me. I started to think that my dream job would be a travel writer. Went to the learning café after lecture and Sean was there yet again, it does annoy me a bit that he is always there. Was going to go to book club but having not gone this year I feel that its a bit late to get into it now although it would be nice to make some new friends. Came home to a valentines card from the bestie, which really put a smile on my face, just what I needed. I can't make my mind up if I regret deleting him off facebook now or not, by the looks of things he hasn't been to Bop the last two weeks. I can deal with things now but at the time I needed a complete cut.
Tuesday, 11 February 2014
11/2/2014
The rotaract meeting yesterday was again pointless. Enjoyed being home in the evening and just chilled and had cosmopolitan magazine to read, thanks to Bianca.
I can't believe how much it has rained and how much flooding there has been and still to come. Im just so thankful that I have not been affected by flooding. Got my American Conspiracies assignment 2 back, wish I hadn't since it was another crap mark. Had a meeting with my dissertation supervisor, went alright, need to change how I put in the images and where I reference them. Scary that I have less than 4 weeks, but if i'm honest i'm feeling more stressed about the assignments I have to hand in afterwards. Had an embarrassing moment in the LC. I had my headphones in and had just finished eating a packet of these spicy popcorn, so my nose was running and I had seasoning on my fingers so I was licking them. At this point I noticed that the guy and on the computer next to me was trying to ask my something. He was asking if he could borrow a pen and to add to the embarrassment he was also very hot. What was also funny was later when I was driving to sainsburys I drove past him.
I was reading Veronica Varlows danger dame blog which was about valentines day. I quite enjoyed reading it and has gotten me to think of the day in a new perspective. I'm tempted now to put notes around saying 'Valentines day is dumb, but you are awesome!'
I can't believe how much it has rained and how much flooding there has been and still to come. Im just so thankful that I have not been affected by flooding. Got my American Conspiracies assignment 2 back, wish I hadn't since it was another crap mark. Had a meeting with my dissertation supervisor, went alright, need to change how I put in the images and where I reference them. Scary that I have less than 4 weeks, but if i'm honest i'm feeling more stressed about the assignments I have to hand in afterwards. Had an embarrassing moment in the LC. I had my headphones in and had just finished eating a packet of these spicy popcorn, so my nose was running and I had seasoning on my fingers so I was licking them. At this point I noticed that the guy and on the computer next to me was trying to ask my something. He was asking if he could borrow a pen and to add to the embarrassment he was also very hot. What was also funny was later when I was driving to sainsburys I drove past him.
I was reading Veronica Varlows danger dame blog which was about valentines day. I quite enjoyed reading it and has gotten me to think of the day in a new perspective. I'm tempted now to put notes around saying 'Valentines day is dumb, but you are awesome!'
Sunday, 9 February 2014
9/2/2014
Very windy last night, it was freaking me out a bit. But other than that I actually had a good nights sleep. Have been recently which makes a nice change, hope I haven't now jinxed myself. Had a dream that I went to Disneyland. Lots of random people in my dream, didn't quite make it the park. There was also a sense of foreboding about the dream. And throughout it was after something but never quite reaching it.
Havent done much today. Bianca was supposed to come home today but she was too hungover so she will be coming back tomorrow. Definetly know how she feels, been there myself, last summer when I went home for a couple of days and had to stay an extra night as I was too hungover to face the train journey. Watched one of my favourite films this evening, The Notebook. Whilst watching it something came to my mind; to see if something in your present matters just think of your life in the future eg 10 years from now, if you see something from your present in your future then it is worth holding onto.
Havent done much today. Bianca was supposed to come home today but she was too hungover so she will be coming back tomorrow. Definetly know how she feels, been there myself, last summer when I went home for a couple of days and had to stay an extra night as I was too hungover to face the train journey. Watched one of my favourite films this evening, The Notebook. Whilst watching it something came to my mind; to see if something in your present matters just think of your life in the future eg 10 years from now, if you see something from your present in your future then it is worth holding onto.
Saturday, 8 February 2014
8/2/2014
On Thursday I got on well with my group for presenting events. In the evening I watched Sleeping Beauty and eat loads of chocolate in bed. Probably not the best film for me to watch at the moment.
In lecture on Friday student union people came in to get us to fill out the national survey and got a voucher for free cake or pizza from the KKB, I went for the cake and got a chocolate brownie which was nice. Last night we were originally meant to go to the cinema to see American Hustle, but decided to go to Flirt instead. I preferred this plan. Pre drinks were at Fae's and met some new people, all round good company. Tanisha was there and we had an interesting talk. Felt very stupid as I got refused entry into Flirt for being too drunk apparently. I hate bouncers, I was just a bit stumbly as I was wearing heels and not doing to well with my fag. Serves me right for smoking especially when I don't normally smoke. Fae did try to get me in but no luck. I walked home in the pouring rain, made me think of the last time I walked back from the SU on my own in the rain. When I got in I tried out my Christmas present.
Today I was meant to meet rotaract and go round town but went round town by myself as I couldn't be bothered. Though I did see them when I was waiting for the bus home. I also saw Dan and Jenny.
In lecture on Friday student union people came in to get us to fill out the national survey and got a voucher for free cake or pizza from the KKB, I went for the cake and got a chocolate brownie which was nice. Last night we were originally meant to go to the cinema to see American Hustle, but decided to go to Flirt instead. I preferred this plan. Pre drinks were at Fae's and met some new people, all round good company. Tanisha was there and we had an interesting talk. Felt very stupid as I got refused entry into Flirt for being too drunk apparently. I hate bouncers, I was just a bit stumbly as I was wearing heels and not doing to well with my fag. Serves me right for smoking especially when I don't normally smoke. Fae did try to get me in but no luck. I walked home in the pouring rain, made me think of the last time I walked back from the SU on my own in the rain. When I got in I tried out my Christmas present.
Today I was meant to meet rotaract and go round town but went round town by myself as I couldn't be bothered. Though I did see them when I was waiting for the bus home. I also saw Dan and Jenny.
Wednesday, 5 February 2014
05/02/2014
Very wet and windy last night and this morning due to a storm. It was another day at uni not much to note, however coming back from getting my lunch, as I went to sit back at my computer in the LC I saw him leaving and then walked outside. How did I miss him? I hope he didn't see me, not that I should care. Later on in the afternoon, I saw him again, this time he was walking past on the outside of the LC, seems kind of a strange direction for him to come from, I wonder if he had been to see her. Also I'm now starting to have enough of Gone with the Wind.
Tuesday, 4 February 2014
4/2/2014
Watched the last half of gone with the wind last night. Strange how I have fallen in love with it. Scarlett is so flawed yet I love her and I can really relate with her and Rhett, though there romance is so frustrating yet I love them, and I love the quotes. 'Fiddle de dee', 'Tomorrow is another day'. Although Bianca kinda rained on my parade with that one by saying once 'unless you die in your sleep, then you don't have tomorrow'. She had a point.
Not happy this morning. The electrician was here and nobody told me. It didn't exactly affect me since there was someone else in but it would have been nice to have been told. Wish I had taken my ipad to sainsburys with me so I could use the wifi in starbucks and have a nice drink, as no internet at home as the electricity had to be switched off. Didn't like the electrician guy he made some comments which I found insulting but I shrugged it off. Fed up with people taking the piss out of American Studies and he said that im the wrong colour to be from Birmingham. Screw him.
Usual stresses over uni work and what to do after uni.
Not happy this morning. The electrician was here and nobody told me. It didn't exactly affect me since there was someone else in but it would have been nice to have been told. Wish I had taken my ipad to sainsburys with me so I could use the wifi in starbucks and have a nice drink, as no internet at home as the electricity had to be switched off. Didn't like the electrician guy he made some comments which I found insulting but I shrugged it off. Fed up with people taking the piss out of American Studies and he said that im the wrong colour to be from Birmingham. Screw him.
Usual stresses over uni work and what to do after uni.
Monday, 3 February 2014
03/02/2014
Another boring evening in last night. Watched Philadelphia for my lecture on Friday. I enjoyed much more than what I anticipated. Tom Hanks is such an incredible actor and I feel that I need to watch more of his films.
Not really sure what kind of mood I was in this morning but I did have a good nights sleep which makes a nice change. Saw a random guy in a baboon mask walk past the LC. I don't think I saw him today but there are so many guys who look like him and I think I now have an established type. It will always hurt but i'm over it.
Quite enjoyed my lecture. The disscussions were all interesting, for instance if you get lost in Texas make sure you have a map as if you stop to ask for directions you will be shot before you make it to the door.
Not really sure what kind of mood I was in this morning but I did have a good nights sleep which makes a nice change. Saw a random guy in a baboon mask walk past the LC. I don't think I saw him today but there are so many guys who look like him and I think I now have an established type. It will always hurt but i'm over it.
Quite enjoyed my lecture. The disscussions were all interesting, for instance if you get lost in Texas make sure you have a map as if you stop to ask for directions you will be shot before you make it to the door.
Sunday, 2 February 2014
Another Gloomy Sunday... but not for the weather, which makes a change
Ate far too many sultanas last night. When will I ever learn, but I love dried fruit too much.
Watched the Nightwish Storytime documentary, aprt from that the day has been boring and uneventful. Just more attempts at trying to do uni work.
Watched the Nightwish Storytime documentary, aprt from that the day has been boring and uneventful. Just more attempts at trying to do uni work.
Saturday, 1 February 2014
I will never know
Alright day yesterday. Got absolutely soaked walking back from uni. Rhiannon was in lecture, brief talk about her American friends. Lots of talk over whether to go out or not, I was up for it as we had planned. We did go out eventually with a couple of friends. Went to slug then Alfies. There was power cut in Alfies but they reminded open and were still serving. Bit of a weird and novel experience.
Didn't stay out late but we continued drinking when we got home and played dodgy dice. Smoked a bit too much. My best friend got in a relationship, so happy for her. Saw on Rhiannon's facebook that she had encountered the power cut and she had tagged certain people in the status. I commented on it, so now im like dunno...
Felt so rough this morning. My parents came down to visit which was very nice and we went to lunch at the Royal Oak. Pretty much felt down for the rest of the day.
Didn't stay out late but we continued drinking when we got home and played dodgy dice. Smoked a bit too much. My best friend got in a relationship, so happy for her. Saw on Rhiannon's facebook that she had encountered the power cut and she had tagged certain people in the status. I commented on it, so now im like dunno...
Felt so rough this morning. My parents came down to visit which was very nice and we went to lunch at the Royal Oak. Pretty much felt down for the rest of the day.
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