31/03/2014

Yesterday was another warm and sunny day which was wasted in doors. Laura had her mum, nan and sister visit for mothers day and after seeing what she had got her sister for her birthday has given me and idea of what to get my mum and dad at some point. Had a brief talk with my parents, they had gone to visit my gran.

Barely got any sleep last night as it was too hot. I did have a very annoying dream though. Seriously what is wrong with me, dreaming of the two of them together. Had a meeting with Sam  to work on our presentation. He is the most useless person to work with, nice enough guy though. Had a lecture which was good, feeling more at ease about my exam. Blew off rotoract meeting as didn't see much point.

29/3/2014

Never got to watch Nashville as the big reunion was on for an hour and a half. Didn't mind as that show brings back memories.

Handed in my liberty and extreamism essay though I think I will regret not sending William drafts of it first but i'm too scared. Lecture was really annoying as he kept showing us art work and as someone pointed out, we are not art students. At least the lecture finished early.

Had quite a pleasant evening in with Laura and Lloyd drinking wine and watching googlebox which was hilarious as normal. At the end of the night a feeling of sadness setted in and has stayed with me all day.

Feeling still that I have so much work. Really struggling with presenting events.

27/3/2014

Where to start with yesterday? Now I know he is on placement so its stupid how I still wonder everyday if im going to see him. Well in the morning I had this odd feeling about it. Basically one of my worst fears came true. He has joined my sanctuary. I couldn't believe it, so embarrassing. I can just about deal with Robin being there, but him. Total FML. Anyway I was just left feeling glum the rest of the day. Got a text off Lloyd saying that the rest of them were in town and inviting me to join them for a drink. So a glass of wine at O'Neill's, a Kiwi Sutura cocktail at slug which was lush. Then we had dinner at Mumbai Spice. Had a nice chicken tandoori madras which wasn't as spicy as I was expecting. Wish I had got a starter or side. We then got after 8 mints with the bill and then went home for a boring night in.

Today has been horrible, I will now always be scared when going to my sanctuary, and felt I was barely over the trauma of yesterday. Shit time with my group meeting. So much work. Had my picture taken and felt insulted that my name wasn't on the list, they even had the name of the American guy who is only here for this semester. Also found out the time of our presentation.

25/3/2014

Detention last night was really good, but I was sad that they didn't finish with the normal song; Queen's bohemian rhapsody. I saw Robin there and he actually said hello to me for the first time since first year. However Detention will always be ruined for me despite having a great time it will never be as good as when I met him properly. Had a really nice drink; mouldy pirate and I don't thing that I paid for any of my own drinks as Lloyd bought them all for me.

Had a really nice white chocolate mocha and bumped into Rishi which is always nice and cheery. Sainsburys was annoying because of the guy who served me and my nectar voucher didn't go through. Rest of the day has been shit.

Boring Sundays

Had quite a detailed dream last night. Mainly involving lillybeth and Liam, even though I am still yet to meet him. Lots of random stuff in the dream, I remember there being a snake and Liam was going to buy my car off me. Havent done much today. Watched Bambi and realised that its not one of my favourite Disney films. Made plans to go to Detention tomorrow night, well it cant be any worse that the last time I went. Feel bad as I need to do uni work and finding it all very overwhelming.

23/3/2014

Nashville had a cracking ending Thursday night. Yesterday morning I found it weird how I now keep bumping into robin. I also had a very nice cookie from the learning cafe for sports relief . Not happy with the comments off Iona for our events stuff.

Got home just in time before it started raining. Laura, Lloyd and me went to oneils for dinner and drinks. Had a nice meal. Found out who Lloyd is seeing. Nice evening over all, ended up in weatherspoons and Lloyd ending up offending Laura by saying she had affirmed his gayness. Got home and Lloyd told us about his health problems which none of us had any idea about.

Today was an open day at the uni, hate those. My parents came down to visit and went for lunch at the royal oak. They have a new menu and had a nice meal from there. People on the table behind us were really annoying as they were talking really loud. They were also playing some geek game and they were joined later by a weird guy who I often see around uni. The girl said that everyone at the uni is weirdo. Missing home.

20/3/2014

Had a bad nights sleep as I was stressing over events. I don't think I can work in that industry as I smiley don't have the passion for it.

I was annoyed this morning as Bianca has been eating my golden nuggets cereal. Lecture was boring. Got my laptop back and it was good at first as I installed Microsoft office easily enough but it won't let me go on any website other than the homepage which is really taking the piss. Seriously how much more is going to go wrong. Simply don't have time for this shit.

19/3/2014

Had a few laughs last night. Rebecca came round to borrow some shoes for a photo shoot. Never got to have a bath last night as it was occupied and I wanted to watch vampire diaries, which wasn't as good as the last few episodes.

Lots of things were making me angry this morning for no real reason. Used my last voucher for a rocky road which was lush. Had a voicemail saying my laptop is ready but I'm going to wait till tomorrow to pick it up.

18/3/2014

Campus was horrible, with people trying to get me to vote for them. Found it funny that Carole was in a mascot suite and said hello, but I didn't recognise her due to being in a mascot suite. Did get some sweets, which I couldn't get into. Found it hilarious that luke is running for president. His pics are very badly photo shopped and don't think I could stand to see him become SU president.

Lecture was funny when seeing the hate groups, seriously general hate, wouldn't the other members hate each other. At some point in the lecture Facebook changed, don't like it. Enjoyed the rotoract meeting. A Rotarian was there and did a presentation on Uganda. Very inspiring and I would love to go there with them and help with the volunteering. Went to the Kkb afterwards and used my voucher for a free pizza, which was quite nice.

Met with Sam to work on our trade show, we started late as I didn't see him and I don't think he saw me. Still annoyed at not having a laptop.

16/3/2014

Clear blue sky again today. I can't even remember rain, ha, but I should have remember to wear sunglasses. The netbook I got today, the person who had to before me was rishi as he left his email up. Rang my gran as today is her birthday. Also got a call off my mum, the place they took my gran out for lunch wasn't great as they had to complain. But they got a third off their meal and some food vouchers.

15/3/2014

Fed up with laptop problems. Had problems with the netbook, got quite angry with it. Went to a house party last night which was good. When we got back, Lloyd bought us dominoes, which I got really excited about. Had some garlic bread as well and saved my pizza for today.

Very hungover today, but I did manage to finish my liberty and extremism essay. Picked my essay film, dreading it. At least I had my fav pizza to look forward to, which I very much enjoyed. Had a lazy librarian, picked up my reserved book and he told my to check it out at the kiosk when he could have just done it there and then.

13/3/2014

Presenting events is stressing me out even more, I keep finding more to do. People in my group annoying me, I feel like no one listens or cares. Had to get a net book out, not ideal but it's better than nothing I suppose. Drove  to currys with my laptop and there was some drama on the way with a bus. Anyway, my laptop has the same issue as last time, do probs won't get it back for another week.

As I learnt in lecture today, deep breaths, as it's impossible to be stressed and breathe deeply at the same time. I also learnt some Shakespearean insults.

12/3/2014

Another good episode of the vampire diarys last night, and I had the company of Lloyd to watch it with. Not sure about what Katherine has done, I knew she wouldn't die, but they did have me going.

Today has been horrible. Wednesdays are boring anyway and it was just like all the others until I got home. My laptop broke, again. Why is it always me. I can't afford to not be doing work and now I can't do anything. I was so close to finishing one of my essays. This is just so frustrating and I just want to cry and smash the stupid laptop up. I'm fed up of this happening, it's only been 3 months since it last broke.

11/3/2014

Yesterday uni was full of people handing in their dissertations but I was not celebrating with them, despite it being my hand in day. Went to my lecture and was one of the few who were there.

Today has gone so quick. Spent most of the day in West Downs with my group but I feel like I am getting know where with my group, and Sam is as useless as me. Wish I knew how to do a Gantt chart. At least I have TVD to look forward to.

9/3/2014

Had a dream about Fiji last night, probably due to getting an email about what to bring, starting to feel more stressed about it, I think as the reality sets in more.

Woke up really early and it was clear blue skies which makes a change. Also quite warm today. A little annoyed this morning as Lloyd kept pottering around. Got to eat some crème egg brownies, but they don't taste as nice as the ones last week and they were also more burned. Face timed my parents after dad told me to, and they had Katie and Naomi round, which was a surprise. James messaged me inviting me to a party in Stafford in 2 weeks, but I don't think I will go as I have too much work, and getting to Stafford is just too much effort and I will feel kinda awkward as I don't know anyone other than him. Benji also invited me to a gig his band is playing, but I can't make it but I should be able to go to the one in April.

8/3/2014

Felling quite stressed over my dissertation as there are bits I missed out such as acknowledgements and an abstract. But its too late to do anything about it now. There were only 6 of us in the lecture and I actually spoke. Overall a good lecture and a good film; Gran Torino. Charles left in the break, said he was going to write his dissertation, wasn't sure what he is doing it on, all I got was labour saving devices, not sure how that relates to American Studies, I was also shocked that he still had to an assignment for American Conspiracies and that was last semester.

Spent the evening in with the housemates drinking wine. Gogglebox started again last night, but I have no memory of it, don't remember much of last night to be honest. Bianca and Laura tried to get my vibrator to work but broke it more, so not happy about that.

Woke up at about 4 still dressed, not classy. Very hungover this morning. Got a load of books out of the library for my essay which I have no idea what i'm doing, if im honest I think I will struggle to pass this module. Also I was annoyed that the SU shop didn't have any crème eggs, but i'll stop at the shop on my way home tomorrow and get some hopefully. When I got in the house smelt divine as Bianca had baked more crème egg brownies, but she hasn't offered me any. Also, im fed up with seeing carphone warehouse adverts as they remind me of a certain person.

6/3/2014

Last night I had a random friend request from an Adam guy who goes to the uni and we have 12 mutual friends. He then sent me a message congratulating me on handing in my dissertation. Quite weird how he knows that and that he is messaging me on facebook.

Got the full idea of just how much work I need to do for Presenting Events. I feel like I am drowning in work and there is just not enough time. I hope I can sleep well tonight, I did last night and had another quite detailed dream, at least i'm not getting bored in my sleep, ha. I dreamt that I was back home, it felt bittersweet.

5/3/2014

Really enjoyed watching the Vampire Diarys last night. Quite sinister, shocked that it was Damon who broke up with Elena, and was sad at the ending, what is happening to Katherine, I don't want her to die, she is one of my favourite characters.

Got my dissertation binded but when I went to the faculty office to hand it in they said it needed the cover sheet, well the standard one. I eventually found it on the learning network, as it wasn't there the other day when I looked. But I printed that off and she said she would put it together with an elastic band, so hopefully it will be ok.

In the afternoon I met a couple of the other girls doing the exhibition and Fiona picked us up to take us to Hampshire Wardrobe to try on outfits. I have a civilian outfit and look like an extra from Downton Abbey. When we were leaving they mentioned that the girl who wasn't there could be widower. Why didn't she mention that before, I would have done that part as black is my colour. Got dropped off in town, where I picked up a few things before getting the bus back. Also whilst I was procrastinating today I took a quiz for which period of history do you belong in and I got Renaissance Italy. The first thing that came to my mind was The Borgias. Well I do like that period of history.

4/3/2014

Had a terrible nights sleep on sunday. Barely got any sleep. Woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep, so went in fb out of boredom and found that they are officially in a relationship. A fresh wave of anguish. I also had a horrible dream where my dad died from swallowing his tongue. Spent the day on Monday feeling like I was hungover or jet lagged because of my lack of sleep. When I was killing time in the learning café before going to the rotoaract meeting I could see down into the foodhall and saw a group of Americans including her. I noticed that she was constantly texting, bet I can guess who she was texting, I remember when I was like that.

The rotoract meeting was in the county arms. Luke pissed me off and most people left after an hour, but I stayed along with Jack, Peter and Zach. Had some dinner and good chatter. Left quite late. Walked back with Zack via Onestop which we got to just before it closed.

Today it was pancake day and made and ate loads in Bianca and Laura. It felt good being able to enjoy eating them, even if I do now feel really guilty, but hey, its just once a year.

2/3/2014

Managed to sleep all through the night which is rare. Also had quite a detailed dream, which he did feature quite prominently in, mainly involving me wanting him and just a whole load of random stuff. I remember that he had his own place.

Today has been alright. Finished my dissertation, just need to sort out the presentation, front cover and get it printed so I can take it to reprographics. The crème egg brownies tasted even nicer today, shame there are none left now.

Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to ask people in my lecture about sorting dissertation stuff out and it looks like I will be going to the rotoract meeting as it will at the County Arms.

1/3/2014

Thursday night I managed to stay up and watch Nashville which I quite enjoyed. I also managed to sleep all the way through the night which was very nice.

Saw cross trainer guy for the first time in ages and he was looking very tanned, so I guess he had been away (I was starting to get a bit worried about him) Sean bought a mango into lecture, which was very random, we all had a chuckle watching him try to eat it in the break. The lecture itself was actually good and finished early for a change which made me happy. Sat in the library and saw a car driving in the car park and I wondered if it was his car, it was as I saw him get out and walked to what I'm guessing was the sports hall, I thought he would already have been there for benchball but I guess he was meeting them at the end. Max sat by me in the library and decided to leave at the same time as me, so I ended up walking back with him. That guy is really started to creep me out.

Got some dissertation work done last night and some more earlier today. That was till I came downstairs and saw Vicky was round and her and Bianca were making crème egg brownies and had bought loads of junk food/snacks. So basically I have just eaten fuck loads this evening.