Tuesday 30th June

work was a bit better today but Fred was really annoying. Won't have to put up with him for much longer as he handed in his notice. Hy made me jump, glad he was in but he doesn't normally talk to me but he came over to help me and the whole thing was just really cringy. Mel didn't go to work today as her skin is really bad p. Her mum has come up and is staying the night. The weather has been really hot and such a shame I have to spend it in doors.

Monday 29th June

Felt really tired today. Hy wasn't in today, and didn't feel as sad about it as I thought I would, properly as my thoughts are occupied by someone else. Fred was back and I don't think he liked that he had been moved, though I don't get why he had to sit where Martin normally sits as there were spare desks and now Martin will have to move. Fred was also coughing really badly and it was really annoying, no need for it. I got to leave work half an hourly early. Still need to book my train ticket for home, might just do that now as I don't care what Lucy said about leave, just a few stupid people taking the piss. My leave as a,ready been approved. Plus I have already made plans now

Sunday 28th June

Most if yesterday was horrible as I was feeling crap about being on and decided not to go out, but when Mel came home she talked me into going out. I was glad that I fid go out as I had such a good night, even if we didn't have sex. It just felt nice to cuddle and make out. His bed was really comfy, shame he is moving. Overall it was a nice house. Tried mdma for the first time. at the time I felt alright but today I was really suffering. Found out some interesting things last night, fir example about his marriage. Also apparently he has been talking about me at work, don't really understand why though. I guess I do like him and today I have been missing him. Really hate Mother Nature at times. At least I'm getting them.

Friday 26th June

made a big screw up at work, possible might get a budget. Was sad that hy was not in. Came on today which has messed up my plans for tomorrow, even though I'm not sure if I do want to have sex with him, as all the drugs he takes kinda puts me off, but I do want to have sex, maybe just not with him.

Thursday 25th June

Work was stressful as usual. Forgot to bring in my cup of soup but quite enjoyed my cottage cheese salad with lots of humous. Went to the chip shop but got a chicken wrap which was quite nice and the staff there were really friendly. Also had some wine.

Had a costa on the way to work, not as good as Starbucks. Had 2 angry callers in a row who were pissed about a cancelled Bermuda flight. The second guy was the worse. Absolutely horrible and arrogant twat. A new group came up today and my god it got noisy when they came up. Always had a bad vibe from that group.

Tuesday 23rd June

Had a weird dream last night. I nearly go shot outside sainsburys in ag. He also threatened Lilly, he said he would shoot her unless Liam hit her. In the sidelines was hy (which is the code for a certain person). I hope this doesn't foreshadow anything. Felt a bit sad at work this morning as hy wasn't in. At lunch I found out the james has left and Fred is planning to leave. It's a shame as we had all made it so far before anyone leaving. I have also noticed that there seems to be quite fewer people left from the group that was before us. Felt a bit better when I got back from lunch as hy was in, so I was a happy that I got to see him today. Went to a meeting for something called our voice. Hy was there, and the meeting was also fairly interesting. Getting annoyed as I have to park in another car park for the gym and I keep getting stuck in there. I think it is down to there shitty machines as I had trouble even getting today.

Monday 22nd June

So work wasn't so bad, felt a bit lonely as Issi wasn't in an umi left as she wasn't feeling well. In my morning break I phoned Jordan's but didn't really get anywhere, plu I felt kinda embarrassed as a certain person was in the canteen where I was trying to make the call. Later in the afternoon I i felt a bit giddy as he walked past me and smiled and I was just feeling silly about it. His smile was so cute and also a bit goofy. Basically I need to get over it. Had to stop myself laughing during one call, as his name was Mr Grey and his middle name was Chris. Found it hard to say Mr grey with a straight face, but at least I didn't have to deal with him as he was ggl.

Sunday 21st June

my parents came to visit yesterday which was nice. They brought my lamp which is handy now. Drove to fallow fields for a wetherspoons but my mum and me stayed in the car which we had parked in a McDonald's car park. Then drove to chorlton and the spoons there was quite nice. Shared a bottle of wine with my mum, so got a bit tipsy. Then went to asda so my dad could fill my car with petrol and wash my car for me and mum mum bought me some more wine. Back at the flat I gave my parents the rest of mels wine from aldi to have on the train. My dad later sent a pic of the wine mixed with sparkling water. Mel also had her parents visit. Went round to Ewan's where we later joined by his friends. Then onto satans hollow. Had a good night and made out with one of Ewan's friends. Was going to sleep with him but didn't as I lost the moment. The whole time I was thinking about somebody else. We all went back to our flat and played cards against humanity which I won.

Got up really late as I thought Ewan's friends were still sleeping on the couch, but found out later that they didn't actually stay. Feel bad about last night but we have been talking and Mel is trying to set us up.

Friday 19th June

Parking was a nightmare this morning, seems to be getting that way often. As Amy was not in today I thought I would get her usual space, but no luck. It seemed really quiet at work, but there were quite a few people off. Finally got to meet my bm. He seems really nice and friendly. Reminded me a bit of dad as he is a plane geek. The meet lasted an hour and a half, so that was less time on the phones. Straight after I was able to have my break. Starting to get my head around things at work

Thursday 18th June

Well my ankle seems to be getting better, unlike my crush on tl. Today I had the afternoon off the phones as we had a workshop, going over any questions and how to recognise bookings. So it was an afternoon spent with our two team leaders, which of course made me happy. Going to the gym has been annoying recently as parking is limited, so I have to go to the car park across the road, but at least I still get it free. My hayfever as been horrible in the evenings recently. In regards to other matters, at least I have found a different guy to fixate on, just a shame he is with someone else.

Tuesday 16th June

so found out Mel had gone to Nottingham for the weekend. Ordered Chinese from a place called Buddha express. Very nice. Watched games of throne finale. Can't believe how much I cried and can't believe Jon snow is dead.

Got the tram to work as wanted a Starbucks. I keep messing up at work. Starting to get worried about my ankle as it has been hurting for two weeks now. Saw a cyclist get briefly hit my a taxi. He was alright as he got straight back up, but he wasn't wearing a helmet, which really pisses me off as I kinda think people like that deserve to get hit.

Saturday 13th June

so I got my wing mirror fixed but I got ridiculously lost trying to find the place even though it is just down the road. But stupid one way roads and not being able to turn onto roads from certain directions. Of all the times I've gotten lost now I think I must have seen all of Manchester. Also picked up my new bed sheets. Kinda depressing that I have now spent to Saturday nights in a row in by myself, but at least I am saving money. I have tried to find places to do yoga but they are either too expensive, too far or on at an inconvenient time.

Friday 12th June

work was quite stressful, just hope that I start to get better. Managed to make it to asda but it was really annoying that they didn't have any proper check outs open.

Thursday 11th June

traffic was alright this morning, think I was behind Tee at the turning onto wilmslow road. Managed to go a whole hour without asking for help. Had a fe sad calls and some more vile people. Kinda annoyed as I'm developing a crush on my team leader. Also found out that Christopher Lee has died.  Mel was back today and she bought the brownies that she made, they were fairly nice but a bit dry and could be a little sweeter.

Wednesday 10th June

Yesterday at work we had a little graduation. It was nice to see Sam again. Got a certificate and had some nice cake and a glass of Buck's Fizz. I booked my flights to America, now just need to sort out the rest of the trip and hope I get leave. Didn't go with ba as its so expensive but I did go with Virgin, plus it's a direct flight from Manchester.

Had some really vile people at work. Really wanted a Starbucks but had to settle for Costa. At least the traffic wasn't so bad today and I got to finish work on time, plus I did my first email.

Monday 8th June

Have now got the flat to myself for a bit longer as whilst Mel came home late last night with Ewan, when she left this morning she said that she was going home for a couple of days. It was tense at work today, but I did find out that I had passed tele val weeke, only just though. Hoping my first call this morning was listened to as I royally fucked up. Had a call from Mr Clutch  and it will cost around £70 to get my car fixed which is cheaper than what I thought but still, I should be having to pay this. Game of thrones tonight was very distressing, well they did warn me before the last half. Stanis, the bastard and felt really bad for danyeris, but it was awe inspiring when she went off on her dragon at the end.

Sunday 7th June

it has been nice this weekend, having the flat to myself as Mel has gone to Derby, though it has been a bit lonely. Had a dream about work last night. Feeling very nervous about going in tomorrow. Terrified it will be the last time I do. Haven't really done much. I ignored a FaceTime from m y dad, I do that a lot but it annoys me that I have to let it ring out as there is no reject option. Glad I ignored it as he is calling from Devon now as he starts his new job there and I can't really be bothered to talk to anyone, especially as I had just sat down with a cuppa to watch Nashville.

Saturday 6th June

Still not feeling that I'm doing well at work plus I still haven't had any feedback yet. A bit harsh to make me wait all weekend for them to get rid of me on Monday. I was sad to hear that Fred got bad feedback. On my way home on Friday the back of my wing mirror flew off. If I wasn't so mad about how it happened I would have found it comical the way it went flying. Had some really bad calls on Friday from the get go. Had a nice evening drinking wine.

This morning the first thing I did was ring Mr Clutch to see if they can fix my wing mirror. Had to take it in but looks like I will have to wait till next Saturday for it to be fixed as they need to get it from Ford. At least the guy was friendly and seemed genuinely helpful. Went to get a nice free large Starbucks and had the Java chip, but Piccadilly was manic with people going to park life festival. Crazy the outfits some people were wearing, saw one girl with short pulled right up I could see her ass cheeks. Surely that should be indecent exposure.

Thursday 2nd June

Tuesday was a disaster! Ended up in tears, Wednesday and today not much better. Really worried that I won't pass validation week. One of the floor walkers tee was really nice but I feel that she is giving me false hope. This morning was horrible as some wanker was cutting me up and knocked my wing mirror off. Really can't afford to get it fix, plus my car is due it's mot soon. I can still just about drive it up it makes me so mad. Basically it was a hit and run

Monday 1st June

Wore my sunglasses to work this morning which is a complete contrast to the weather now. For once I was able to watch Jurassic park without dreams of dinosaurs but I did dream about getting sunburn. Didn't have a good nights sleep as I had a headache. Last morning of training and then on the phones. Mixed feelings about it. Glad to be finally doing the job but messed up a bit and feel like I need to know the procedures more as I don't know the number for toil and I got stuck on a call so didn't finish till 18.11. Watched a very intense episode of game of thrones. Now I know why people were saying it could possibly be the best episode yet.