Thankfully I woke up feeling much better. Though today was harder emotionally. As per usual I saw Rhiannon's Bop pictures. I got to West Downs for my lecture and accompanied Jess round the back whilst she had a fag. I could see the back of Rhiannon's house and I can't be sure but I think I might have saw him outside and then in the window, but it was at a distance so I can't be sure. Still even seeing him was gut wrenching and felt like my heart was being squeezed, but it is getting easier. The lecture was depressing, everyone seems to have prospects for working in the events industry meanwhile I still have no idea what I want to do. Made myself feel better by making Gingerbread people when I got home, though they are not as nice as the last ones I made, they aren't as soft and less flavour. I thought that might be the case as I didn't think I put enough ginger and cinnamon in.
Still feeling bad about the argument I had with my parents last night and not looking forward to this weekend as I will be on my own giving me more time to dwell in him. I can't even remember what I used to think about before I met him. I have become the sort of person I can't stand.
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